Round 5 VLCD Day 1

Whew... I made it. I had the worse headache all day today and I was hungry and so tired and had zero energy. Hoping tomorrow will be better. I just gotta get back into the swing of things. I didn't cheat at all today either. Yay!!!! I wasn't very hungry for my last loading day. I had a small bleu cheese salad for lunch and pizza for dinner and then ate a bunch of chocolate chip cookies and had a couple beers at the PF beach in the afternoon.

I will google that lady once I am done here. Thanks for the info Erica! They are really pretty and I am glad you said they are super simple. I am glad we are doing the diet at the same time! I had no idea! It's always nice to know somone is sharing in your pain! Lol.

I hope I lose some weight tomorrow!

Ok...

So, I can post but I can't leave comments.

Erica... I would really love to get together and learn how you do the buttercream roses all over the cake. The pic I saw on FB was awesome! And I wanna learn if you are willing to teach me!

Anyways... Lots has been going on. August 5th I had my heel spur removed from my left foot. It's been an interesting adventure but I am super glad I had it done since it feels better than in has in years, I just wish recovery would be quicker. Lol. Slowly but surely. I finally got to drive my truck tonight... It's a stick so doc said I had to wait. I can now do part time shoes with inserts and part time boot still. It feels SO WEIRD wearing a shoe on my left foot. I feel very unbalanced and my foot swells alot. Got new shoes they are mesh on the toe area but are open on the top of the foot and they have criss cross velco straps so that I can adjust them as my foot swells. They are comfy too so that is good. Lol.

Other good news... My boss told me yesterday that I am going to start training on Sunday to be co-lead baker, or if I do really good then I will be lead baker. They said that my talents are being wasted just making scones. That really made my day. : ) I am excited and nervous cuz I still have a hard time standing for long periods of time. I have a stool but where I will now be working is not a good area for a stool. So, who knows what will happen but I will take it one step at a time. Tonight the GM at Shari's texted me and asked if I wanted a part time job so I am going to talk to him in the morning. Gotta start paying medical bills here soon! Yikes.

I started loading today. I am going to do a 6 week round so I can look good for my graduation ceremony the last weekend in October. No cheating or giving up this time. Mom is doing Weight Watchers and she is doing good so far. Expect today. Lol. She was kinda loading with me. I had McDonalds breakfast, Jamms frozen yogurt, Toro Veijo nachos and am sitting here eating kettle chips and drinking Dr. Pepper as I type. I feel disgusting. I didnt' weigh in this morning as I was in Clarkston visiting my bro and sis in law. I will weigh tomorrow to give myself some knowledge of how much I gained on my loading days. I am not brave like you Erica to not weigh myself everyday. Though I agree that I get super bummed when I stall or only lose .2. But I am too OCD/anal not to do it. Lol.

Well, I think that is all I have to talk about for the time being. I am glad that blogger is mostly working. Hopefully I can figure out why I can't leave comments... it says that they can't verify my email address or someting stupid like that.

Let's see if this works!

I just wanna test this before I start typing everything and lose it all!

Oh depression...

I have been in a super funk for about a month now. I have only been to the gym 2 times. I have no energy or want to go. I know its because I'm depressed and I'm depressed because I have no one special in my life. I am getting to that point to where I want to settle down but no one wants me. I have never been in a real relationship before I want desperately want to experience what love feels like. I am getting old and I am afraid I will always be alone and it hurts so much. I try dating websites but the only guys that contact me are either old or very unattractive. I do have a date lined up for Saturday evening but I am afraid there will be no spark. Plus I have no friends and that hurts too. I have no one to go do things with and hang out with. It's just my mom and my cats. I am such a loser. I finally have a career now and an education and I am ready to move forward but its not happening and I don't think it ever will. Depression.

I have decided to do another round of HCG.

I just can't stop eating and I am starting to gain some weight back. I am going to do a 3 week round. I will load on Friday and Saturday. I am weak and have no self control. UGH!!! I hate myself sometimes. I love sweets and savory foods. I just sent 2 bottles to my friend in Phoenix so I will wait until I get her letter with the money for those bottles before I can get my own. My mom will start another round after she gets back from Montana for the 4th. I can't go because I have to stinking work. It sucks big time that I am missing out on everything still because I need money. Montana is where my sister in laws folks live and they invited us out there they live right on the river and its so beautiful and peaceful.

I think while I am doing the HCG I will only workout on Tuesdays and Thursdays and do a double session its curcuit training or bootcamp and zumba on those nights and Saturday mornings I will do bootcamp. I don't think I will have enough energy to do everything while I'm on it. I want to be sexy. Damnit.

I think I am going to make some marshmallow fondant today and bake a cake to practice fondant cakes. I should get the stuff to make some gumpaste so I can practice flowers and play with my new veiner board I got at the Carolyn's yesterday. I got some wire there since I couldn't find it at Michaels. Hummm... what to do what to do...

Will it work today?

So, I sold my first cake today! I made a spongebob squarepants cupcake cake. First time making one of those and suprisingly easy! I paid off both my credit cards with the money I got back from school. I also have got some Le Cordon Bleu logo clothes and a food processer, imersion blender, bowl scraping paddle attachment for my mixer (one that will fit this time!), and a cute kitty apron. Lol. Now to save the rest for when my loan payments start rolling in. I hope all is well with everyone. And am hoping Blogger will start working again for everyone!

IDK...

Seems as no one is blogging anymore. : ( Life for me is moving right along. Hard to believe we are already 1/2 through the year already! The lovebirds are on their honeymoon in Maui until Thursday so we have their 2 dogs and 2 cats for a grand total of 6 cats and 3 large dogs! Yikes. We are completely overrun by animals and fur!

I am making my first cupcake cake for a real customer! Woohoo!