VLCD Day 32

Woohoo. Ate food and lost weight this morning! .4lbs may not be much but its in the right direction which is all I care about at this point! 27.6lbs gone!

I worked last night as I said in yesterdays blog but I don't think I told you about my belt! I have a 2x belt that before I could only buckle on the last ring and it was tight... I wore it again yesterday for the first time since I started HCG and I can put it on the 3rd ring and have it be tight!! Woohoo. I wore it on the 2nd ring so it was comfortable but still! I always dreaded belts for the fact that they never fit and were uncomfortable. Now, that is starting to go away!

Well, today will be like yesterday.... School, come home and take a nap, then close at work. Tomorrow is my day off work so I will be doing laundry. My life is so exciting.

Have a wonderful day ladies and I hope you see big losses on the scale today!

New: Got the BESTEST news today! I thought I was done with my classes in April. Well, I went to the registrars office today because what they told me didn't make sense... They said I got done April 3rd but our spring break is from March 26 through April 3rd. She said i will be done with my classes on Feb 10!!! I will be moving back starting on the 11th so I'll be home evening of the 12th!!! WOOHOO!!! I am supposed to start my externship the next day after my classes get out but for those of us to move we have to have our actual start date on a signed contract with the company and school blah blah blah cuz I only have 6 weeks to complete all my extern requirements. I am so stinking excited! Ok, sorry had to share my news since my mom is still teaching school and can't talk to her until 3:30pm.

2nd New: I have to do this project in my nutrition class that I have to write down all my food for 3 days (way easy on this diet!) and have to imput it into mypyramid.gov for it to anyalze (however you spell it). Lol... I never eat my veggies. It doesn't like that. Lol. Makes me laugh at least my pysical activity level is good with just working and school.

VLCD Day 31

So, I had my apple day yesterday. Lost the .6 lbs that I had gained the previous 2 days before that. Beginning to wonder if my body only wants to lose the 27.2lbs that I have already lost. We'll see what the scale says tomorrow, I had cottage cheese and strawberries for lunch and just had some steak. Too bad its soo late, hopefully my body can digest it. Lol. Finally was able to go to the bathroom this morning too... it had been a few days. Lol.

Closed at my job today for the first time ever (I have worked there almost a year now). I took home so much crossiants, cookies and bagels. My fellow classmates and my stepmom's coworkers are going to love me tomorrow. The company we (work) donated all our left over stuff to when under so now we just throw everything away. I said NO WAY... my piggy classmates will love all this!

Thanks for all the encouraging words everyone! Just a few more days and I can finally eat like a "normal" person. Erica... would love the recipe for oopsie french toast!!! It made my mouth water when you described in on FB.

Love you all! Good night and yay for all the losses!!!

VLCD Day 879 Lol. It feels like that. I think its day 30.

Gained .4 lbs this morning so I am doing another apple day. I swear these last 12 days are going to be the death of me. Totally excited for phase 3. I can't wait until I don't have to take the drops anymore (9 days) and can eat like a normal healthy person. I can't wait to have brinner (breakfast for dinner). : ) Salads sound amazing right now and sandwiches... oh sandwiches... I could write a book about how back I want a sammy right now. : )

Had 2 more bloody noses today. A super bad one at work. It was horrid. Stained my work shirt, its in the washer now so hopefully it comes out. I really hope its the weather. I can get insurance going on the 1st of October so only a few more days and then if its still happening then I will go to the doctor. It can't be good for me... all the blood loss I mean.

Anywho... thanks everyone for reading my blogs and your words of encouragement. It really does lift my spirits up everyday. : ) Been feeling pretty discouraged with the gains lately. I am just hoping its from when I was sick and didn't eat anything for a couple days and I'm just having a hard to adjusting again. Lol.

You all are doing wonderfully!!!

VLCD Day 29

Gained .2 lbs this morning. I am really starting to wonder what is going on! I don't like having to have an apple day every couple days but it's only for less than 2 weeks. I am really starting to get excited. My last 500 calorie day is in 13 days that means I stop taking the drops in 10 days!

I have never been so excited to eat salads before. In the grocery store they have the individual salads with the amount of calories right on the label! I will stock up on those and eat them for lunch! I can't wait for salad dressing and meat that isn't chicken!

I have been getting a bloody nose for the past couple days. I just had one. It makes me nervous. I NEVER get bloody noses. Maybe its just from blowing my nose (but I have only blown it a few times today) but what if its from the HCG? I don't think it would have started this late (after 4 weeks) but it seems to happen not long after I take a dose. Who knows. My brother gets HORRIBLE bloody noses, he has to get his nostrils cautarized or however you spell it.

Well, I think I am going to do my homework and take a detox bath!!  : )

Update: Took my detox bath. When I get my own house I will have a spa tub so I can actually soak in the tub. I got the water level perfect except it was too high for the tub's liking and started to self drain. Grr. So, I ate eggs for lunch and my step brother started cooking hamburgers for dinner and I couldnt' resist the smell. So I had 2 caution foods today. Crap. I really hope I don't gain again. If I do then it will be another apple day tomorrow.  Had another bloody nose again at 5pm! This was a bad one too. I hope its just the weather change.

VLCD Day 28

I made it to 4 weeks! Holy cow! Did an apple day yesterday and woke up to a 2.4 lb weight loss. Brings me to 27.2 lb gone for good! TOM should be gone now so I hopefully the scale will continue its downward march!

So, I saw on Cindy's blog how to make a ticker (thank you Mia!), so I did... but now I am wondering how I update it everyday??

I am getting so excited. I was at work today and was noticing how loose my pants are getting. The crotch of my jeans SAGS down several inches now (YAY!) and there is bunching around the back side of my jeans too! I am excited to see the look on my mom's face when she picks me up from the airport in December. I know it will make her happy to see that I am finally starting to take care of myself.

Well, tomorrow starts my academic classes (yes, finally I don't have to smell chocolate and cake and yumminess everyday!) and my new schedule. Classes in the morning and work in the afternoon, but I have tomorrow off work so tuesday will start the new school/work schedule. Hopefully this will work out better for me to be able to study and get some decent sleep!

Good night ladies!

VLCD Day 27

Gained another .4 lbs this morning. Grr!! I am having another apple day today. Forgot to take my drops this morning, too. My day is NOT going well. I found some grissini breadsticks at Safeway so I ate one of those to see what they taste like. I like them. Hopefully it wont ruin my apple day. Keep forgetting to get baking soda for a detox bath. Maybe I'll just soak in epsom salts and see if that helps at all. I had better be back on track tomorrow or I am going to SCREAM!!!! Tomorrow is Day 28 and that means I only have 2 weeks left!!!! WOOHOO!!! Still don't know where to find Ezekiel bread... can anyone point me in the right direction?? I can't wait for a sandwich!!! Has anyone heard of vegainaise? It's like mayo but no eggs. My mom uses it since its 100 calories but the cool thing is because the oil is cold processed so she only has to count it as 10 calories (its the purple labeled one)(she does the Prism diet). Its in Fred Meyer in Cda, if you are in the produce area and look for the cold case with the healthy juices and such its on the top shelf. I was just wondering if we could count that as 10 calories as well?? I love mayo and would love it more if I coulduse it more often! Lol. Ok ya'll have a wonderful weekend!!

VLCD Day 26

So, I am back on solid food again. Gained .4 lbs but I suppose that is to be expected after being on a liquid/applesauce diet for a couple days. Still down 25.2 lbs which is awesome.

Made it though the entire day at work. Still feel like poo though. Came home took a nap, shampooed the carpet in my room, did laundry, mailed a package to my mom and did some grocery shopping. Not a bad days work. My sister is thinking about doing HCG and people are telling her that she will be weak from only eating 500 calories and she'll just be straving herself... well, look what accomplished today on less than 500 calories! Ha! Take that. Lol.

I have noticed that I no longer get out of breath walking up the stairs to my room anymore and my school uniforms are getting really big!!!, and my tight pj bottoms are no longer tight! Woohoo!

Well, I gotta get up earlier for work since we have mucho stupid catering tomorrow. At least I only have to bake on the weekends there anymore. I would love baking at work if I actually got to make and create things there. Everything comes pre-mixed (muffin mix, carrot cake mix, and the cookies are mixed and cut out into rounds already) so all I do is tray the things up and put them in the oven. BORING! I am really starting to hate it but it's not affecting my career choice cuz it's not real baking. I am just a cook basically. Ok, my little side rant is over. Lol.

Good night Ladies and great jobs on your weight losses!!!

VLCD Day 25

Lost 1.4 lbs this morning. I am feeling better today. No body aches, headache or sore throat... now I have a horrible phlemy cough and a stuffy nose.

At least I will be able to eat again!

VLCD Day 24

I am SO sick. Blah. I stalled for the last 2 days so I did an apple day yesterday and I woke up to a 2 lb loss. I think I may be doing that again today just because my throat hurts really bad and I have some SF applesauce that has nothing but apples, h2o and absorbic acid (vitamin c) and am able to get that to slide down my thoat without too much pain. Yesterday I did use real apples for my apple day. I just may be on a pureed diet for a few days. Lol. Sad.

Official weight as of this morning is 236.6 lbs.  Down 24.2 lbs. Have 2 weeks and 3 days to go then I can eat some real food. I am looking forward to chili and mayonaise (weird I know but I can do a roll up of turkey, cheese, mayo and mustard and pretend its a sandwich).

Not too much going on in my life. Came home from work this morning and if tomorrow wasn't the last day of my class and we're working on our last project that is due tomorrow worth a whole letter grade I would stay home from that too. But, I want to keep my A!

More: Barely made it through class. This is so horrible. I feel like I've been drug through the 9 hells backwards face down at least 20 times. At least no work tomorrow so I can rest until class. Bleh!

VLCD Day 22

Well, Today was another stall day. Still at 238.6 lbs. Boo! It's better than gaining though. That is my positive outlook on that.

My dad came home today for my stepmom's birthday. He works 4 hours away so stays in a camper while working. He said he can see the loss in my face. My school pants (the horrilbe black and white checked pants) are getting huge and my jeans slide off my ass when I bend over (thank goodness I have to wear a chef's coat at work!). I hate belts cuz they never fit so therefore are too tight but now maybe it will be better. My grandma bra is getting too big too. I am finally starting to see the changes and that makes me happy.

I had to sit there and watch my family eat t-bones (I had a 3.5 oz piece of tenderlion) and potatos and butter and sour cream. I just sat there and watched them and wished it was me but I just ate my meat. 2 weeks and 6 days until P3. I just don't want to get out of control while being able to eat so much more. I am scared and nervous about it. I know how I tend to be but I got a picture of the bridesmaid dress and it is stunning (I will attach a picture) and I am hoping to lose 100 lbs by the end of February so I look sexy in it!

 There is no way I would look good in that at this weight! I just want to feel pretty again.

VLCD Day 21 I'm half way done!

I am so excited to be halfway done with this round! It's all down hill from here. Lost .4 lbs this morning. 22.2 lbs for my total. 

Worked this morning then came home and took a nap so I haven't really eaten anything yet. But, I am hungry now that's for sure! Tomorrow is monday... don't think I am ready to start another week. I like days off. At least this is my last week of having to get up at 2:30am! No more baking during the week!! Yes. I think I shall see a much better change of my overall schedule. : )

Til tomorrow.

Good luck with day 1 Erica, Mia, and Tonnie. I am very glad we are all back on VLCD together.

VLCD day 20

Sorry about the depression blog. Sometimes I get so overwhelmed I just kinda explode and I don't have anyone to talk to about it but I needed to get my feelings out so I had finger vomit. Lol. But, I am feeling better today and I think sleeping helped alot. I just can't wait until all this school stuff is over and I can be back home.

I lost 1.8 lbs this morning. New total 21.8 lbs.

VLCD Day 19

Well, I did it. Lost exactly .8 lbs for a total of 20 lbs. I should be happy but I am pretty depressed. All I want to do it eat. I am sick of not being able to eat anything. I keep looking at the 1st 3 weeks section of the food list and seeing all the great things I can have but I have to wait. It's so frustrating. I am SO sick of water. I am becoming obsessed with the scale and eating less to make sure I continue to lose weight. I just wish I had someone to talk to about everything. I am feeling completely left out by my "family" down here and I just want to move back home. I am sick of being an outsider. I am sick of having no friends and being stuck at home. I am miserable. I just want to give up but I won't I've come too far to quit now.

VLCD day 18, I think. Lol.

Lost a whole 1.8 lbs this morning! 19.2 lbs gone forever! Ended up kinda doing a steak day yesterday cuz I was so busy! Only had a few bites of my chicken for lunch and had some steak and applesauce for dinner. I am hoping to see a 20 lbs loss tomorrow. Come on .8 lbs!

Chocolate work is finally done! We start on our sugar showpieces tomorrow... well, Chef is doing her demo starting tomorrow. This should be fun and I won't want to eat it which makes it all the better! My freezer does have quite a few candies in it for my next load days!

Sunday will be my half way done point. I can hardly wait. It's all down hill from there! It's been quite a "ride" so far. 2 gain days and 1 stall day. Hopefully soon I will be able to see my body shrinking. Lol. I've lost about 2 inches from everywhere but 4 from my waist.

VLCD day 17

Yesterday I had my first stall day. Which is much better than gaining!

Today I lost .6 lbs for a total of 17.4 lbs.

I am so mentally, physically and emotionally drained it's not funny anymore. I just thank God that I am having to switch to morning classes starting next block so that means no more baking during the week, but probably on the weekends, so no more waking up at 2:30am anymore!!! It's just becoming too long of a day for me. Tomorrow is the last day of the chocolate candies and I am so thankful. I am having the WORST cravings ever! But, I didn't cheat. I am bound and determined!

My step mom and step sister had a HUGE fight a month or so ago and she kicked my step sister out of the house. She is now back in the house for a week until her dad flies down here to get her and drive her to Washington to live. It's going to be a hell of a week. She is nothing but drama and the house has been so quiet and nice since she's been gone. But, it's only for a week. I will need happy thoughts and prayers sent my way all week! : )

Anyways, I am done "blabbing" now. I need to sleep, the screen is fuzzy cuz I can barely keep my eyeballs open any longer.

Good night and thanks for reading : )

VLCD Day 15

Lost another 1 lb this morning. Im now at 16.8 lbs loss. I weigh 244 lbs. Started at 260.8 lbs after my loading days. It feels good but I am not seeing a big change in my body or clothes. Kinda makes me feel sad. But I am sure it will come soon enough. I got SO hungry this morning at work I bought a side of eggs... 2 ounce ladle full of "scrambled" eggs. Couldn't even eat half of that before I was full! Hopefully it won't make me gain. I have gained 2 times already... 1 lb each time. But the next day or so I lose it and more. I am getting scared to eat now though sometimes. It's weird, like I am becoming obsessed. I've been trying to eat the food I have next to me for about an hour now. I have no appitiete but I know I will be starving in the morning if I don't eat it. I get paid tomorrow so I think I will buy some steak... haven't had that yet. : ) I love steak with A1, but I can't have A1. But I can pretend.

We are making truffles and molded chocolates in school right now. It's so hard not to eat them. I did take some of Chef's demo candies and I have them in the freezer until I can eat them. I am so proud of myself for not giving in even though everyone seems to egg me on to cheat.

I remember probably 2 years ago now when I was working at Shari's an older gentleman came up to me and told me if I would lose 50 lbs I could be Miss America. That has always stuck with me. Plus my mom telling me that the only way I will find a man is if I lose weight. Always used to make me really hurt. If he didn't love me at my "worst" why would I want him at my "best" ya know? But I can see that she is probably right. I don't want to be alone anymore. And I don't want to be fat anymore. I just want to be happy and have a family. Ugh.

VLCD Day 14.

I made it 2 weeks! Yay! Well, yesterday I gained 1 lbs again. Grr! But today I lost 1.6 lbs. I don't understand why I this is happening. But I am thinking it's cuz somedays I have to weigh at 3am and somedays 4am so my body hasn't finished working its magic. That is what I am choosing to believe unless someone has a different idea...

My official 2 week loss is 15.8 lbs which is very cool! I think I am still on track.

Only ate once yesterday. Not completely my fault. : ) We went to the ASU football game last night and I thought we were going to tailgate so I was going to bring my little packet of 3.5 oz of hamburger to eat. But that didnt' happen. So, I stopped by the store and got these little low calorie low fat pretzel crisp things so I wouldn't cheat too bad. They are good and Im glad I had them! Our seats where right behind the food venders and I smelling everything. I am going to have to put Philly Cheese Steak on my list of things I want to eat on my next load days. Lol. Yes, I made a list. I am going to load the right way this time! : )

VLCD Day 10 and 11

Day 10- only lost .2 lbs. I am noticing a difference in the times I weigh myself. When I work I weigh at like 3am so maybe that is something for me to keep in my head as well. I just gotta keep my head up and keep trudging along. I am still losing weight no matter what. I want to be sexy.

Day 11- I am still having a hard time going to the bathroom so I took another pill last night. I'm down 2.6 lbs today so hopefully that means my insides are cleansing themselves and I can get back on track and not have to take any more! Unpleasant for sure! Anyways, it's my day off so I weighted myself at like 8 something and I really think it makes a difference. I dunno. I am just gonna keep chuggin' along.

I am noticing it's becoming easier to not want "bad" food. I mean I want to eat it but my body and mind is saying that it's no big deal... which is awesome! I have never gone this long without eating sugar. I get golden delicious apples and they are so sweet to me and that is enough. It's absolutely crazy. School is tough but I am making myself eat my lunch right before I go so that way Im not hungry at all (not an easy thing when I get up at 230am and am hungry at 8 or 9 and school isnt until 230pm). I am trying to get myself into a pattern that I can live with and get myself through the day. It's working thanks to all the help from Erica and Mia. I couldn't do this without you ladies! You guys are my insperation!

VLCD Day 9

Well, I made it through my first week. Eating is getting easier... or lack there of. Lol. I was really upset this morning cuz I gained a whole pound! But I didn't go to the bathroom yesterday and I ate eggs. So, tonight I took a detox bath... just got out, now I am VERY relaxed, and today took a couple pills to help rooter my clogged pumbing. Lol, there just is no nice way to write about something like this! I weighted myself and I lost .6 of the original pound so I hope over night I will lose more. It's very defeating and it ruined my whole day and made work miserable. I really hope all this works. I can't take 2 days in a row of gaining! Ugh! Sigh. Good night my friends. Thank you for your words of encouragement today. I wish I could just wish away my weight. It would be lovely. Lol.

VLCD day 8

Lost another 2 lbs this morning!! Woohoo! Total is now 13.2 lbs.  Noticed it today cuz the bra I was wearing was too big around! So awesome, but now I need new bras which will have to wait until the end of the 6 weeks when I know what size Im gonna be for a while.

Tried eggs for dinner tonight. Mostly egg whites isn't as good but it tasted delicious anyways. Not thinkinig about food much anymore which is helping a ton.

It's Labor Day... already did my labor for the day... lol, work. It's hard having to get up at 2:30am cuz then I eat my "lunch" at around 9am so I ate my "dinner" at like 3:30. Ugh. But the silver lining is that my next block of classes (starting the 27th of this month) are all academic so I am starting earlier in the day so I can't bake anymore and will need to switch my schedule to 3 to 9pm which will be totally different but a good change for my eating habits (WAY less temptation!). I am PROUD to report that I have not "cheated" once... I love to eat the muffin edges (I have to square off the muffins before displaying them) and the broken cookies. The only thing I have eaten that isn't on the 500 cal diet is a pickle... which in the book it says to try substituting a pickle for cucumbers. I made sure to get pickles with no oil or sugar and they have 0 calories according to the label. I makes me feel like I am eating a real hamburger (hamburger patty, mustard, and a pickle on the side). Lol.

This truly is the longest I have ever been on a diet. I am glad it is working so well for me too. I keep thinking to myself what if I lose 40 lbs this round and only do the 3 week next round to lose 20 more so I can be into the 2nd 3 weeks of maintaince so I can eat some sugar over the holiday (Christmas). It is my little dream. Lol. It keeps popping up in my head. Either way I am just excited to be able to eat Christmas dinner with my family... even if I have to have a steak day the next day. : )

Alright, good bye for now my little blog family. Have a wonderful rest of you day!!

VLCD Day 6 and 7

Day 6 I lost .8 lbs for a total of 9.6 lbs. Tried cottage cheese for the first time and paired with strawberries it was really good! Getting super sick of chicken... Not much else to report just the same thing day after day.

Day 7 I lost 1.6 lbs! Total 11.2 lbs. Haven't eaten yet but I think I will go down and make myself something now. Gonna run to the store and get some eggs to try for dinner. Finding it easier and easier to go longer until my lunch meal. Not much hunger anymore. I am finding that it is hard for me to drink just plain water but I love making the lemonade! I can drink that all day!

VLCD Day 5

Nothing too exciting to report... only lost .4 lbs today. Hopefully tomorrow will be better... I didn't work yesterday and ate 2 apples... although I couldn't find in the book that you had to mix up fruit as well as meat. I did switch up my fruits today and got called in to work so fingers crossed I lose more tomorrow!

Getting called in I didn't get to eat my food til 2pm and I wasn't too hungry... still have no appittite until I am super hungry.

5 weeks and 2 days til Phase 3!

Did figure out that I will be on P3 when I go home for christmas so I can eat with my family. Hopefully that means I will reach my short term goal of losing 60 lbs before I go home! 51.2 lbs to go!

VLCD Day 4 September 2, 2010

Well, I lost 1.8 lbs yesterday and 2.0 lbs today! So far 8.4 lbs gone!! Woohoo. Read in the book I need to switch up my meats so I got some hamburger and ate that last night. I am looking forward to eating it again tonight! I made fresh lemonade too and it was awesome! Drinking as much water as I can handle. Lol. I even had tea yesterday, but I forgot my stevia (and my drops) so it was pretty gross. Over all I think I am doing well.

I sleep better at night (no waking up all the time) but I feel alot more tired by the end of my day. Don't have much of an appitite except when Im hungry but all I think about is food. Lol. This too shall pass! First week is the hardest and I am now 1/2 thru my first week. I have never stuck with a diet before. But I am bound and determined to do this! Once my body has detoxed I know it will be easier for me.