Tee hee hee

Ok. So I was a complete bitch on HCG so I stopped and am doing Weight Watchers with my mom and I am down 8 lbs since Sunday! Whoot whoot. It it easier to do the same diet as my mom since we eat together and I was very jealous of the things she got to eat and I was stuck with chicken, an apple, and a pickle and a breadstick. This is working well for me. I am writing down my food and counting up my points. Plus I can get frozen meals and the points are already figured out for me. Erica, you are a complete saint! Such willpower! Congratulations on being able to stick with it! I couldn't. So, I don't remember what I last said about work but Wednesday I got pulled into the bosses office and I got into trouble because the scones I made didn't turn out... I mis-scaled somewhere so I don't know where and Megan (the girl who has always been so mean to me) was supposed to be traiining me but she would always leave me alone so they blamed her too since she wasn't watching over me and training/babysitting me like a trainer is supposed to. SO! They infomed me that Ieshia, my manager, is going to be training me over the next month or so and I am the new lead baker! Megan basically got demoted as she has been doing some things recently that she shouldn't have been. I feel bad at how everything played out but I am super excited for myself!!! My feelings are torn because Megan and I were finally starting to kinda get along after I stood up to her a couple months ago and told her to F OFF!!! Now I am sure she blames me for losing her position but she has no one to blame but herself and her crappy attitude. So, mom and I went to Olive Garden and celebrated... I went over points but thankfully we get some flex points each week. Well, I gotta get going. Have a wonderful rest of your weekend Erica! I'm back to work in the morning. Update: I was able to leave a comment! I switched to the new interface for blogger and it worked! Hooray! Anyhoo, off to church in an hour and a half then back home. I think I shall take Lilli to the dog park again. She loves it so much! I like all the people I meet there too.

Will power?? Oh will power...

... where did you go? Ugh! So I ate everything under the sun today. Oh well. All of my crap food is now gone and I will not allow myself to buy any more. At least its not in the back of my mind anymore. I hate this diet. Lol. But tomorrow is a new day and I will get back into the correct mindset. I did lose 2.2 lbs this morning. It's not that great for the beginning but I can't expect to lose weight like I did in round 1.

I go back to the doctor on Thursday and hopefully she will release me to go back to the gym, maybe not to do classes yet but I should be able to do the machines. That will help get my motivation to eat correctly going again. I made it the entire workday in my Crocs. I didn't have my inserts in them so tomorrow I will wear my Shape Ups with my inserts in them and see how long I make it in those. I am hoping I can be boot free now. That thing really is annoying!

Oh man, my stomach is starting to cramp from all the crap food. Hopefully I have learned my lesson. Lol.

Good night!

PS. Erica, I am so jealous that you are sleeping so well! I am sleeping like crap thanks to the meds I am on!

Round 5 VLCD Day 1

Whew... I made it. I had the worse headache all day today and I was hungry and so tired and had zero energy. Hoping tomorrow will be better. I just gotta get back into the swing of things. I didn't cheat at all today either. Yay!!!! I wasn't very hungry for my last loading day. I had a small bleu cheese salad for lunch and pizza for dinner and then ate a bunch of chocolate chip cookies and had a couple beers at the PF beach in the afternoon.

I will google that lady once I am done here. Thanks for the info Erica! They are really pretty and I am glad you said they are super simple. I am glad we are doing the diet at the same time! I had no idea! It's always nice to know somone is sharing in your pain! Lol.

I hope I lose some weight tomorrow!

Ok...

So, I can post but I can't leave comments.

Erica... I would really love to get together and learn how you do the buttercream roses all over the cake. The pic I saw on FB was awesome! And I wanna learn if you are willing to teach me!

Anyways... Lots has been going on. August 5th I had my heel spur removed from my left foot. It's been an interesting adventure but I am super glad I had it done since it feels better than in has in years, I just wish recovery would be quicker. Lol. Slowly but surely. I finally got to drive my truck tonight... It's a stick so doc said I had to wait. I can now do part time shoes with inserts and part time boot still. It feels SO WEIRD wearing a shoe on my left foot. I feel very unbalanced and my foot swells alot. Got new shoes they are mesh on the toe area but are open on the top of the foot and they have criss cross velco straps so that I can adjust them as my foot swells. They are comfy too so that is good. Lol.

Other good news... My boss told me yesterday that I am going to start training on Sunday to be co-lead baker, or if I do really good then I will be lead baker. They said that my talents are being wasted just making scones. That really made my day. : ) I am excited and nervous cuz I still have a hard time standing for long periods of time. I have a stool but where I will now be working is not a good area for a stool. So, who knows what will happen but I will take it one step at a time. Tonight the GM at Shari's texted me and asked if I wanted a part time job so I am going to talk to him in the morning. Gotta start paying medical bills here soon! Yikes.

I started loading today. I am going to do a 6 week round so I can look good for my graduation ceremony the last weekend in October. No cheating or giving up this time. Mom is doing Weight Watchers and she is doing good so far. Expect today. Lol. She was kinda loading with me. I had McDonalds breakfast, Jamms frozen yogurt, Toro Veijo nachos and am sitting here eating kettle chips and drinking Dr. Pepper as I type. I feel disgusting. I didnt' weigh in this morning as I was in Clarkston visiting my bro and sis in law. I will weigh tomorrow to give myself some knowledge of how much I gained on my loading days. I am not brave like you Erica to not weigh myself everyday. Though I agree that I get super bummed when I stall or only lose .2. But I am too OCD/anal not to do it. Lol.

Well, I think that is all I have to talk about for the time being. I am glad that blogger is mostly working. Hopefully I can figure out why I can't leave comments... it says that they can't verify my email address or someting stupid like that.

Let's see if this works!

I just wanna test this before I start typing everything and lose it all!

Oh depression...

I have been in a super funk for about a month now. I have only been to the gym 2 times. I have no energy or want to go. I know its because I'm depressed and I'm depressed because I have no one special in my life. I am getting to that point to where I want to settle down but no one wants me. I have never been in a real relationship before I want desperately want to experience what love feels like. I am getting old and I am afraid I will always be alone and it hurts so much. I try dating websites but the only guys that contact me are either old or very unattractive. I do have a date lined up for Saturday evening but I am afraid there will be no spark. Plus I have no friends and that hurts too. I have no one to go do things with and hang out with. It's just my mom and my cats. I am such a loser. I finally have a career now and an education and I am ready to move forward but its not happening and I don't think it ever will. Depression.

I have decided to do another round of HCG.

I just can't stop eating and I am starting to gain some weight back. I am going to do a 3 week round. I will load on Friday and Saturday. I am weak and have no self control. UGH!!! I hate myself sometimes. I love sweets and savory foods. I just sent 2 bottles to my friend in Phoenix so I will wait until I get her letter with the money for those bottles before I can get my own. My mom will start another round after she gets back from Montana for the 4th. I can't go because I have to stinking work. It sucks big time that I am missing out on everything still because I need money. Montana is where my sister in laws folks live and they invited us out there they live right on the river and its so beautiful and peaceful.

I think while I am doing the HCG I will only workout on Tuesdays and Thursdays and do a double session its curcuit training or bootcamp and zumba on those nights and Saturday mornings I will do bootcamp. I don't think I will have enough energy to do everything while I'm on it. I want to be sexy. Damnit.

I think I am going to make some marshmallow fondant today and bake a cake to practice fondant cakes. I should get the stuff to make some gumpaste so I can practice flowers and play with my new veiner board I got at the Carolyn's yesterday. I got some wire there since I couldn't find it at Michaels. Hummm... what to do what to do...

Will it work today?

So, I sold my first cake today! I made a spongebob squarepants cupcake cake. First time making one of those and suprisingly easy! I paid off both my credit cards with the money I got back from school. I also have got some Le Cordon Bleu logo clothes and a food processer, imersion blender, bowl scraping paddle attachment for my mixer (one that will fit this time!), and a cute kitty apron. Lol. Now to save the rest for when my loan payments start rolling in. I hope all is well with everyone. And am hoping Blogger will start working again for everyone!

IDK...

Seems as no one is blogging anymore. : ( Life for me is moving right along. Hard to believe we are already 1/2 through the year already! The lovebirds are on their honeymoon in Maui until Thursday so we have their 2 dogs and 2 cats for a grand total of 6 cats and 3 large dogs! Yikes. We are completely overrun by animals and fur!

I am making my first cupcake cake for a real customer! Woohoo!

May 31st, 2011

The wedding went off without a hitch and everyone loved the cake! I feel very accomplished now and am feeling much better about being able to complete a large task like that again! I had so much fun this weekend! The bachelorette party Friday, Rehersal dinner Saturday (bar afterwards) and the wedding Sunday (bar afterwards)and Kariann's grandpa's 90th bday party in Troy MT yesterday. 3 solid days of drinking with every little sleep (I have a hard time sleeping when I am on in my bed). The girls that went out Friday didn't go out Saturday (Which were all the bridal party) except me so I got props from the guys for that. Lol. I am feeling it now though. Lol. Good thing I only work 2 days this week. Lol.

It's back to the gym tomorrow. I need to get back into routine again and get the rest of this weight off. Even with losing all that weight I was still a fat bridesmaid. It sucks but oh well. I can't compete with anorexia. Ok, I am going back to bed now. I hope everyone is doing okay. I can't leave comments but I am reading your blogs!

We're down to the wire here people!

Lol. I can't believe its already Tuesday! Yikes! I gotta make frosting tomorrow and start making modeling chocolate balls... and Erica! I remember now... you have to use special food coloring that is made with cocoa butter since most food coloring is made with water and that is what causes it to sieze. I rememberin in the shower a couple days ago. Lol. So, I made a trip to freaking Spokane yesterday so I could go to the cake store and they are closed on Mondays.. just my luck. Plus I went to the valley mall to get sticky tape to hold my dress to my chest at Vicky Secrets... and bought sparkly spray and glittery purple eyeliner. Lol. And went to David's Bridal cuz my mom bought me a tattoo covering makeup kit and she was convinced that I couldn't figure it out by the directions. Sigh. They just told me to wipe the skin with rubbing alcohol first then follow the directions. Waste of gas that trip was. Oh well. Got my eyebrows waxed too. I have to let them grow for about a week before I wax or the hair doesn't stick so I look like a bushman for sure!

Just a few more days and the craziness and stress will be over. They leave for their honeymoon on the 1st or 2nd and we are keeping their 2 cats and 2 dogs for the week they will be gone. Lol, just imagine... 6 cats, 3 large dogs, and 2 humans. We are going to be completely overrun and outnumbered. Lol. It's going to be fun. I love their animals I just hope the cats will tolerate eachother for a week. : )

Well, I probably won't have time to blog until the weekend is over but I might find a minute or 2 here and there.

Have a good one ladies!

The end of the world...

... didn't happen. Lol. I baked for 11 hours today. All layers for all tiers and all cupcakes have been baked! Now it is time to stress about how and where I will be frosting the cake. If I am frosting it here then I will be stressing about transporting the cake. I think it will be safer to frost it there on Friday when everyone else is decorating the venue. Yes. I think that is what I will do. Thanks for listening. Lol.

I think my hair turned out cute. My mom doesn't like my bangs but I don't care. I wanted them and I like them. She tries to run my life and I am sick of it. She now has to make some yellow cupcakes and she is going to frost them with chocolate when all my cupcakes will be frosted white and I already have 5 dozen and I don't need anymore. Why? Why does she need to add to MY project? UGH! It's so annoying.

Beauty day for Bre!

I am so stinking excited to get my hair done today! I am getting highlights and lowlights I think. I don't really know. I just know I need a hair update!

Started baking the cake layers yesterday. I had to go out last night and buy a 12 inch round pan since I had a 10. Opps. Gotta love the 40% off Michaels coupons. Got it for less than $8! But I figure I can start baking then freezing and I won't get so overwhelmed. I am going to start making the frosting too. I have some huge buckets I brought home from work so I can store it.

Was looking on my school portal... looks like school might owe me $3500! I called and they will do an audit on it since I just graduated and it will take a couple weeks but I might be getting a check! It would allow me to pay off my credit cards and save the rest for loan payments as those will start in 6 months!

OH Erica! I found the modeling chocolate recipe in my book. It says 1 lb of chocolate to 8 oz of glucose or a 2:1 ratio. Melt chocolate and heat up the glucose to the same temp as the chocolate. Mix well and then seal in an airtight container for at least 1 hour then knead it to a workable consistancy. Is that the same recipe you have? I remember it being very oily too! And maybe sticky after it warmed up from handling it.

Oh man. It is really hard for me to want to get out of bed when I have 3 sleeping kitties either on me or laying on the bed. Plus a big dog laying right next to the bed. I don't want to disturb them. But I want to start getting ready for the day. : )

Have a wonderful day today ladies! I hear the end of the world is tomorrow so we better party it up tonight and go out with a bang! Lol.

And the countdown begins...

... 11 days until the rehersal dinner. 12 days to the wedding. I am going to start baking cake layers on Thursday.

So... I was BAD and totally went shopping today. I found the most perfect silver shoes for the bridesmaid dress so I got that today... that now makes 3 pairs of shoes I have bought for the dress. The black peep toes are just not the comfortable so I bought some super cute wedges but cork doesn't really good and the material is like a white and black snake skin pattern but their is alot of silver bling on the front and todays shoes are sliver with a little half bow on the toe strap with some rinestones. 4 inch heels and totally comfy. Got those at Kohl's. Then went to Ross because I wanted a pair of capri jeans to wear for summer, got a pair, a pair of jean shorts, a pair of workout shorts and a really cute dress thing that can be worn about 5 different ways so I decided to wear that and the wedges to the rehersal dinner. OH! and I bought some new underwear! I haven't bought new underwear since I lost weight so its been very loose and very ridey (if you know what I mean...) and they are just so worn with holes and faded and it was time! So, yeah... Bre kinda splurged today but I deserve, and need, some new clothes that actually fit. And my capris are a size smaller than what I am wearing now in jeans! Yeah, I hate being inbetween sizes but the 14's fit better than the 16's. I LOVE LOVE LOVE being out of 24 pant size and out of the 2X's in shirts! It's a wonderful feeling and I have Erica and Mia to thank for getting my journey started!!!

Alright ladies. It's time for bed. I hope the week is starting off wonderfully for each of you!

Good night!

Oh Sunday...

Well, yesterday was my birthday. My mom and I went out to lunch and to the movies and we had Coldstone for my birthday cake. I don't want or need a birthday cake. I made one just to test out a new frosting recipe from a banana cake I had in the freezer. I gave it to my gym instructor. Lol. His eyes got so big and he had a big smile on his face. I know I will always have a taste tester in him. Lol. I made ganache with tollhouse chips and it came out SO much better than previously when I used generic chips. So Friday evening I went to Costco (with my mom's card, thank you self checkout!, they never knew it wasn't her) and bought a 50 lb bag of powdered sugar and a huge bag of tollhouse chips. I hate buying in bulk but I will go through that in no time. Lol. It's hard to believe that my brother is getting married in 2 weeks. It will be nice when it's all over with! I am stressed about making the cake. I just want it to be perfect. I am thinking about making a bunch of modeling chocolate and coloring it grey and crimson and rolling little balls to use at the bottom border insead of shells or something like that. I think it will be more fun. Ok, I really gotta go to bed now!

Love to you all!

Freaky Friday the 13th!

Well, I really have been trying to blog for a couple days now but blogger has been down so I couldn't.

Been housesitting all week for my old bosses. They come back tomorrow. I will be excited to not have to live to end of Hayden every day. But it's been pretty peaceful out here and nice to have my own living space. They have 2 dogs and 2 cats.

Sweetwater Bakery decided to keep me on so that is exciting. I am going to fill out an application today for Latte Lane on Best and 4th for a part time job. Tomorrow is plasma day, exercise and my birthday. Mom and I are going to see Water for Elephants go out to eat and have icecream from Coldstone as my birthday cake. We don't want or need anymore cake. I am going to frost a frozen banana cake I have in the freezer to try out that new frosting recipe that Erica gave me. Then I am going to give it away. I got butter flavored crisco to try... we'll see what it's like. Lol.

Been working out all week and my quads are killing me today! We really worked our legs yesterday. I did 80 lbs on this seated row type machine yesterday (works your arms you start up high and bring your arms down and touch shoulder blades) I thought I was going to die but pushed the limits anyways. The instructor, Nate, was like can you do that the entire time. He is funny and I think I have a bit of a crush on him. Lol. He is the owner's brother, but only 26. I am going to be an old lady tomorrow... geez. How depressing.

Well, I heard my laundry buzz so I better fold it and then get in the shower so I can get this day moving!

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!

Oh man...

I've been neglicting my blog. Sorry ladies! This past weekend was my sis in laws graduation from WSU so we were in Pullman this weekend. I am now house/dog sitting for my old bosses while they are out of town until Saturday. Tonight was my first day back at the gym since Thursday! Yikes! Yesterday was bunco so I missed kickboxing. I started tanning on the 1st so I am not so horribly white for the wedding. I got my new bridesmaid dress on Friday and I finally got to try it on today. It's too big in the chest but if I get some double sidded sticky tape and just tape it down it should be fine since its not enough to justify spending even more money and getting it altered. After my last alteration journey I'm afraid it's going to cost as much as the dress again. Lol. It hits right at the knee so that is good, it looks super short on the hanger. I need to get started on making the wedding cake layers and I can just freeze them until its time. I need to make that last banana cake I have in the freezer with that new buttercream recipe I have to see how it handles. The Sweetex shortening is $75 for 50 lbs so I didn't get it as I will never use that much and the shelf life is only 8 months. Crisco it is. Fingers crossed it all works out beautifully and I can stop stressing about it. Well, I really need to get to bed but I wanted to say hello and I am still alive just really busy with life and the wedding! 19 days and it's all over.

Awwhhh... it's my weekend. : )

Laying in bed. Gonna make my frosting in a bit then let it rest for a few hours before I start frosting my cupcakes. We are not going to the BBQ now but I will still make some to take down since there will be 6 of us, they will get eaten. Lol. Just making 2 dozen now. It's Cinco de Mayo today. I thought I would try Mexican Food Factory. My friend that got married in Feb worked there for like 6 years and said they have good food and I have never eaten there in all the years that I have lived there! We shall see how much time I have. I have my workout classes beginning at 4:45 and ending at 7 and then I have to go to my old bosses house to get final directions as I start housesitting for them this weekend. Lots of things going on this month. I sure hope I can find a job too. I have a couple places to stop at today as well. Fingers crossed.

Wednesday

In a good mood today... weird since TOM showed his ugly face this morning. I don't have to work tomorrow which is gonna be so nice! My mom and I are headed to Pullman on Friday for my future sister-in-laws graduation from WSU VetMed program. What could be more perfect for a vet than our last name? Dr. Ruff. Lol. I am going to make cupcakes and decorate them like cats and dogs. I also learned how to do sunflowers and ladybugs and daisies at work so I will decorate some of them like that as well... there is a big BBQ for all the students and their families.

My mom is stopping a week early so that she can eat this weekend and then maintain until the wedding. She had lost 29.2 as of yesterday morning! She did so awesome and I am very proud of her. : ) I am excited that we will be able to eat together again. Hopefully it will get me back on track. I am staying the same weight so I am not too worried about it but I need to stop eating everything! Lol.

Horrible horrible day

Found out today that Sweetwater isn't going to hire me on since they haven't picked up in business for the summer. So, Wednesday of next week I won't have a job anymore. I came home and my dog ate my mother's day present for my mom and now I can't afford to buy her anything else. I can't afford to buy the supplies I need to make my brother's wedding cake and I can't afford to pay my bills. I seriously hate my life. I want a new life. I am sick of having to fight tooth and nail for anything and everything. Why can't something go right for me? I can't deal with anything more.

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So, the bridesmaid dress I ordered is just too tight and I want people to say "oh, doesn't she looks pretty" not "OMG... did she have to grease herself to get into that?" So, I am sending the first dress back and this dress is on its way on Monday and I will have it in 3 days. I ordered it in a 16 since half of the reviews said it ran small and the zipper is really hard to zip especially if you have to do it by yourself.

I had my first reniassince fair experience. It was not what I imagined, but it was still fun. I got my mom this dog sun catcher carved outta wood with a crystal in it and some pretty pressed flowers that were lamenated with ribbons tyed to them to make bookmarks for Mother's Day. Moscow is full of a bunch of hippies it seems like. I know that sounds harsh but when you have people standing by the garbage cans telling you where to put your trash it kinda throws red flags in my mind. I have never spent any time in Moscow before so it was an experience for me. Lol. We went to Winco (no big bags of p. sugar... but they had it in bulk for .77 a pound, will check cash and carry, and no hi ratio shortening) and then we went to Old Navy (buy one get one half off... I got this really pretty long loose knit sweater thing and some leggings for $11!) and then we checked out the bears at WSU and found a geocache (my first ever) and then we ate at Emerald Restaurant and then got kinda lost on the way home... but we eventually found our way back. I am exhausted! It was a big day for me, I am not used to being out and about for 10 hours anymore! Lol.

I hope everyone's weekend is going well! Back to work for me in the morning!

Manic Thursday...

Was supposed to go to work for an hour today to make sure I got my hours for school... need an average of 30 a week to meet requirements. Well, turns out businesses wanted 6- 6 packs of cupcakes. The gal that usually does them is off on Thursdays (me too) and she has been teaching me how to do them... so I had to do them today. First time unsupervised! I got outta there 4 hours later... Lol. She didn't have any chocolate cupcakes made so I had to make those plus we had an inspection from one of the company's we do business with so having him watch me frost cupcakes was VERY nerve racking! But they turned out super cute... Ladybugs and daisies and sunflowers and spring flowers!

My bridesmaid dress came today. I tried it on and it fits but is pretty tight though my thighs... hopefully I can slim down in that area so the dress looks amazing! Fingers crossed!!!

Seasonal Depression...

... is kicking my butt. I don't want to do anything. My cake turned out terrible. I don't feel like I am good at anything anymore. I wish I had a talent for something but I'm not good at anything. My dress will be here on Thursday and I am afraid I will not fit in it by the wedding. I am not going to eat candy anymore... sugar free included. Easter killed me. Hopefully I will snap outta my funk but I am pretty down in the dumps at the moment.

Friday Night.

Well, I started filling and frosting my cakes. I made some mistakes but I know what to do differently for next time. I think I might need a new frosting recipe... any good ones?? She doesn't want fondant. It's kicking my ass trying to get everything smooth! UGH!! Starting using my bowl scrapper instead of my offset spatula and that is making it much easier! I still have the 16 inch layers to frost. I will save those for tomorrow as I will need to make even more frosting... made about 12 lbs of frosting today. YIKES! I need to go to URM in Spokane and get a big bag of powdered sugar for the final deal. I have to go to Home Depot tomorrow after the gym and buy some pvc pipe to use as dowels for the cake. Hopefully its not too expensive, I am running out of money!

Erica, I made my physical appt with the plasma place, the soonest they can get me in is May 14th, also my birthday, but that is okay! Woohoo. Extra money!! Hopefully we can make our appointments at the same time so we can go together in the future!

Had lunch with my old bosses today. I am going to house sit for them starting on May 7th. It will be nice to get out of mom's house for a bit. We talked about me staying the winter there as they travel during the winter and I could move my kitties in too. : ) Could be fun! Wonder if I would have to pay the utilities and such... a good question to ask if the time comes!

Have a wonderful weekend and Happy Easter if I don't blog again until then!

Lacking in motivation now...

So, I went to physical therapy and out to lunch with my old bosses and I was supposed to work on icing my cake when I got home but now all I want to do is take a nap. I can work on it tonight as long as my mom leaves me alone. It feels like she is trying to take over my project and keeps telling me what to do. I don't like it and she knows that I don't. I have tried to nicely tell her that I don't appriciate it but she just doesn't get the clue I guess. It's getting frustrating for sure. Saw my old sponsor at Walmart today. Maybe I'll hit a meeting sometime soon... who knows. It's been years! Ok, I'm gonna take a nap and then work on my cake.

Happy Friday Ladies!!

Thursday

Well, I have been off the diet for several days now. I am staying around the same weight so that is good. On Saturday i will start being very good with my eating habits. Today I am going to that new cupcake store downtown and tomorrow I am going to lunch with my old bosses and possibly to dinner with a date so needless to say i won't be eating fantastically for the next 2 days.

I ordered my bridesmaid dress online last night. The biggest size they had was a 14 and i am currently still a 16 (but they had a size 16 a week ago) so I need to hit the gym even harder and be really good with my eating habits so it will fit! I have a little over a month in which to do it so I am not going to stress!

I am going to make a practice wedding cake starting today. I will bake as many of the cakes as I can. I am excited and nervous. I just want to get it done before my mom is home for the weekend because she always says what she thinks I should do differently and what I am doing wrong and I don't like it! This is my gift to my bro and sis in law and she needs to butt out! Lol. Anyways, it's my first day off and I wanted to sleep in and yet Im awake. Sigh. I will try to go back to sleep once my mom leaves and there is less noise in the house.

Have a wonderful day ladies!

Day 1

I did good today not eating everything in sight. Lol. I had my first 10 hour shift at work so I brought lunch and dinner since starting tomorrow I will be going from work directly to the gym so this way I won't eat so late. I am going to be late to my classes but I hope not too late. Plus I can stay after and work on the machines on my own to make up for it. It is going to suck for my gym routine I was in but I will find a way to make it all work. : ) Sigh. Just when I get into a groove someone has to come along and screw it up for me! Lol. But I am going to love and hate 3 days off... I am going to be so bored since I don't really have any friends here.

My sister and I are going to check out that new cupcake shop that opened up downtown on Thursday. I think this is the place that my friend Andy who owns Pastry and More is making all the cupcakes for and just dropping them off every morning. He was telling me about it last time I saw him but shhhh... don't tell anyone I told you. : )

Have a good night!

Opps...

Was going to make this my first day of 500 cal no drops since I am not losing any weight anymore. But, we went shopping today and I got some ezekiel bread and went straight into P3 foods.

I did my first bootcamp today and then kickboxing. I am sore again today. I am getting stronger and I know I am gaining muscle. My thighs are smaller and my biceps are getting bigger. : )

I am doing classes 5 days a week and 3 of those days I am doing double classes. I know doing this and eating well I will lose the rest of the weight I want to on my own. I am excited and totally ready to do it! I enjoy working out!

Have a wonderful weekend!!!

R4 VLCD Day 17

Yesterday was another not good day... I am glad I am off for 2 days so I will eat good. Yesterday I had some cinnamon roll and we are testing cake pops so I had one of those too. Needless to say I gained .8 this morning. But I will lose it all again and I am thankfully almost done with the round and can move on with my life. Sandwiches and cheese here I come. : )

I am having a pajama day. I'm watching Hook right now. I love this movie. I plan on doing nothing all day and it's going to be great. : )

Have a great day!!

UPDATE: I went to the bathroom and I am down 1 lb from where I was this morning and I had a breadstick and some chicken broth. Whew. I don't feel so bad now. : )

R4 VLCD Day 16

Gained .2 this morning but I think it's because I am gaining muscle from the gym since my pants are fitting noticable looser in the last couple days plus maybe its some left over from my cake eating. Who knows. Thankfully I am almost done with the round! Only 3 more days on the drops! Had to taste more stuff at work today so I will probably gain tomorrow too but I am going to a circut (spell check) class before zumba so I should burn 1200 calories tonight or more.

Have a good day!

R4 VLCD Day 15??

I gained .2 this morning which is good considering I had some of the banana cake and a few bites of bunco snacks.

I am done doing this diet. Lol. I am so sick of it. I am going to ride it out but I am not going to do it again. I will lose the rest of my weight the hard way of eating right and exercise. I am sick of eating the same thing is a rotation. I need variety if I am going to do this long term. HCG was a great starting point to get me motivated in the right direction and now I want to do it on my own. And not stuff my face like I did when I went off it the first time a few weeks ago. Lol. That was bad. I am learning still. : )

R4 VLCD Day 13 and 14

Yesterday mom lost 1.6 and I lost 1.2. Today I lost .2 but dunno about mom haven't talked to her. I ate a little piece of that banana cake so I could see if it would be good for the wedding cake. Plus my boss had be try some different products she is working on so tomorrow I will probably gain.

Going to the foot doctor in a moment. My whole foot is hurting this time so I am not sure if its my heel spur or not. I will find out soon enough. : )

R4 VLCD Day 12 I think.

So, we didn't end up eating until after 8pm last night and this morning I gained .8 and my mom gained .6 so it sucks but hopefully tomorrow will be a good loss. Who knows.

R4 VLCD Day 11

Well, I lost .6 this morning. I'll take it after my snacking yesterday. My mom thinks she lost a pound. The scale the first time said 1 lb lost then it kept saying she didn't lose anything so she is sticking to the loss and will see what tomorrow brings.

Off to kickboxing then my massage : ) Then I am going to make my banana cake again but with chocolate ganache in the middle and a white frosting on the outside (for the wedding) to see how it turns out. My smore cupcakes turned out good (that was my experimental baking). Lol... that is what I ate. Oh well.

R4 VLCD Day 9 and 10

So, yesterday I lost .4 and my mom gained .2. Today I lost .8 and my mom lost 1.0. So we are still doing good... except I cheated today. I experimented and made up some smore cupcakes since work was trying to make them a couple weeks ago... well, I had 2 small ones since the just crumbled in my hands when I was taking them out of the pan. Opps. Had horrible bathroom problems after that so hopefully it won't be too big of a gain on the scales tomorrow. I am getting REALLY tired of being on the drops again. It's only for 11 more days. Hopefully I can make it. I really want a bacon pizza today. Ugh! I am going to go to the gym tonight so I can burn calories instead of eat them!

Have a wonderful weekend ladies!

Happy Friday!!

R4 VLCD Day 8

I lost .8 this morning and mom lost 1 lb. : ) She's down 13 something and Im down 9.8. It's exciting for sure! It stinks Im not losing more but I know I am gaining muscle so I can't complain.


Tonight was a bad night. Right before I left for the gym my dad's ex girlfriend emailed me saying that they broke up and that my dad told her Im bisexual... which Im not. Instant tears. So, I call him and leave a voicemail. He calls me back while Im at the gym right before class starts and I tell him that he should ask me before he goes spreading vicious rumors about me. He said sorry and I hung up. I'm so mad... so good kickboxing workout tonight. So, I email my ex-stepmom since her daughter had told me that my stepmom had told her I was bi to... so I confront her about it. She called me and said that he has thought that ever since we lived in Vegas because my best friend is a lesbian. Serious?? Grr. But still... my dad doesn't need to be going around talking about my personal business like that... even if I was bi. And the ex-girlfriend needs to grow up and stop causing drama.

THEN! I go to climb into bed and one of my cats puked all over in my bed. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thankfully I am about to go to bed and pray that tomorrow is a better day.

R4 VLCD Day 7

Lost 1 lbs this morning! I dunno how much my mom lost yet. She left before I got up for work.

She just texted me back... she lost .6 again.

I can tell that working out is helping me to lose more weight everyday. I am really enjoying it even if I am usually pretty sore the next day. : )

Happy Releases!!

R4 VLCD day 6

So, this is actually day 6. I am off a day somewhere in my bloggings. Mom and I both lost .6 this morning. I know mine is from not drinking all my water and TOM is trying to come for a visit... dang him!

R4 VLCD Day 4

I lost 2.4 lbs this morning! My momma lost .2 lbs. Maybe I can catch up to her now. Lol.

I am proud of myself for being good and sticking with it this time. The days are dragging by though. : ( 17 more days... HCG is lucky it works so well or I wouldn't do it anymore. Lol. I dislike not being able to eat anything. But it works like a charm. I bought a bathing suit at Costco 2 sizes smaller than I am now. I bought myself a new belt in a smaller size since my old one is now too big and my dad had punched another hole in it. I am ready to start wearing the size 14 jeans that my step mom and co worker gave me. I think it will happen soon. : )Fingers crossed!

Good luck Erica. Sorry the hubbs yelled at you because he broke the treadmill. That doesn't seem very nice at all. : (

I will email you the carrot cake recipe as soon as I get unlazy and go get it as its in the other room. Lol.

R4 VLCD Day 3

Lost 1.2 this morning. Total of 5 pounds. My mom lost 1.6 today for a total of 11! We are still staying strong. My "other mother's" birthday is Friday and she is requesting carrot cake so I get to try out my new mixer!!! Yay!!! I am so excited. I will use the recipe I have from school cuz it was some yummy carrot cake and I HATE carrot cake. : )

I went to church tonight with my mom. I haven't been since Christmas. I may start going Saturday evenings with her more regularly.

Erica... how do you make that chocolate delight stuff or whatever sweet thing you were making last round you did?

Happy Releases!!!

R4 VLCD Day 2

Lost another 2.2 lbs this morning! Mom lost either 2.6 or 2.8 lbs she couldn't remember and didn't want to go upstairs to look at her paper.

We went to Sandpoint to check out my brother's wedding venue, reception options and about the flowers. It's beautiful (the venue) and they have a nice kitchen I can work in to put the finishing touches on the cake! So, when we got back into town my mom and I got my stand mixer! I can't wait to play with it and am upset that I won't get to eat any of the things I make for another 3 weeks! : ) Oh well. It's the KitchenAid Professional 600 6 quart bowl 575 watt Artisan series. It was on sale for $350 (regularly $500) and I signed up for a Macy's card and got an additional $60 off. I got an additional attachment... paddle attachment with a built in bowl scraper. It's my graduation present from my mom and brother and his fiance! I can finally start making practice cakes to get used to my pans and see how many batches of cake I need to fill them up! Lol. My sister went to winco today and hopefully got me 20 lbs of cake flour (only .40 cents a pound there! way cheap) so I can start baking to my hearts content!

I also want to make some cheesecake squares and drizzle some chocolate glacage over them. Gosh, I can't stop thinking of food... and I'm so hungry I could eat an entire cow! Nap time then it's time to workout and I have to make a food run for chicken breasts and fruits and veggies after that.

R4 VLCD Day 1

Well, I only lost 1.6 lbs this morning but I had to remind myself that I am building muscle by taking these classes so I may be losing inches and toning but not see a huge difference on the scale anymore. Who knows. I think I will just stick to 3 week rounds since I lose the majority of the weight then anyways.

I am not going to zumba tonight as I can hardly move from zumba on tuesday and kickboxing last night! It hurts to go down the stairs and lets not even talk about how much it hurts to sit on the toilet!

Wonderful news! My mom woke up to a 5.8 lbs loss! I am very happy for her and I hope she will continue to do so well on it!

R4 VLCD Day 1t

Gained 1.8 lbs this morning. Yikes! Ate lunch already and have some bathroom issues already. Hopefully the scale goes down tomorrow! Last time i stalled.

My legs hurt so bad from zumba last night! Kickboxing is gonna kill tonight! Then im heading to eddies house to stelk his music for my ipod.

Happy releases!

Redo R4 Loading day 2

Ok, gained .6 this morning. I don't think I can eat anymore! I am eating Jimmy Johns right now. It's pretty good. I just got done working out too. Tomorrow starts VLCD day 1! So ready!

Redo R4 Loading day 1

I am not pleased with what the scale said this morning but oh well. I have been eating bad all weekend! Plus not working out so that just makes it all the worse.

I am going to my kickboxing class tonight at 6. I may head over early and do the elliptical for 30 minutes before hand. Sounds like a good idea. : ) I feel absolutely stuffed and hope I don't throw up! Lol. I am ready to do this round the right way!

Happy releases ladies!

My mom's bday

... and Erica's dad's birthday too!! Yay! So, I made a 3 tiered cake for my mom's bday. I only made one recipe per pan so they were all different sizes and tried different kinds of frosting so it cake wasn't very pretty but it tasted good. One layer was white cake, the other banana and the top was orange. For the wedding I will do chocolate cupcakes too! The banana cake was my favorite! I frosted it with swiss buttercream frosting so it tasted just like buttered banana bread! Yummy! So, I guess I am doing a five day loading... lol. Mom now wants to start loading on monday and tuesday cuz she and her bff are going to rockford bay and there is this dive bar they always go to that has amazing food (but moms teaching friend took us out to olive garden yesterday for moms birthday meal and cake today). So, we will be starting vlcd on wednesday but her teaching friend her and me are going to texas roadhouse tomorrow since that is the only night my work/exercise schedules will work out. All 3 of us are doing the diet together. Her teaching friend, Cari, does the pills. She has done one round. I am to be their drill sargent and motivational leader so I will have to be on my best behavior! Lol. It will be good for all of us. They are doing a compitition... first to lose 30 lbs owes for a mani/pedi day. I don't think I will lose that much anymore since I am getting closer to my goal weight I think my body will hold on to the fat more. : )

So, I am sure you will be hearing lots of our adventure over the next 6 weeks.

Have a wonderful weekend ladies and happy releases!

3am wake up for this girl!

Friday... Rain day.

Ok, so I have completely cut out the sugar (no snacking at work) and the cheese and I have lost 2 lbs since yesterday. Yay.

Big news! My mom is going to start HCG so I told her I would do it with her so she doesn't have to do it alone. We are going to load on Sunday and Monday and start VLCD on Tuesday. I am going to re-start my Round 4... if that is okay with you ladies. : ) I think I had such a bad time because I was trying to start it while I was taking care of my BFF's kids and hubby so I didn't get to load the way I wanted to and eating was hard because they wanted me to make them things that were delicious and I couldn't eat... I don't know how you mommys do it! It was just downhill from there for me. I think now that I am not in that situation I will be able to do better. I know my willpower is is back now. Working out is getting easier and I am loving the classes!

Gotta finish my mom's cakes today. She is home today so it wont be a surprise anymore but oh well.

Happy releases ladies!! Happy Friday!

Zumba class #2

OMG... it hurts to sneeze! Classes are fun but OUCHY! I know when I get used to them I won't hurt so bad. I can't wait until that day comes!

Saturday is my mom's 60th birthday. I am going to make a "mini" wedding cake for her birthday so we can check out the different flavors of cake... white, banana, and orange which my bro and his fiance want as the flavors of their cake. Is that a dumb idea? I dunno. I want her birthday to be special but I can't plan anything because I have no money and it sucks.

Manic Monday

Oh man! I went to my first kickboxing class and I am SO sore! I went and got some of the gloves for when you hit the bags and a new pair of workout shoes since the zumba lady didn't like my shape-ups for the classes. My new workout schedule is going to be Mondays and Wednesdays is kickboxing and Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays is zumba. They are going to kick my ass into shape for sure! I am going to wait to weigh myself again until Saturday. I was craving some bad for me foods so I ate them so I could be done with my cravings and start focusing on eating correctly and working out like crazy!

Happy releases ladies!

Saturday morning... snowing!

Alright. Been trying to eat right but sometimes I slip up but I am continuing to go to the gym all the time. I did 50 minutes on the elliptical yesterday and 20 minutes on the bike. I did a few sets of the leg press the ab cruncher thingy and the bicep thingy. These are all technical terms I assure you. Lol. : ) I am about to go try my first zumba class. I went to Sandpoint last night with my friends whos wedding I was just a bridesmaid in... needless to say they fed me alcohol even though I wasn't planning on drinking last night I got pretty intoxicated. Lol. It was a blast though. It was definitely better than sitting at home like I had every Friday night before that since I have been back in Idaho.

Last time I weighed myself I was down .8 but it's been a few days. I don't think I should weigh myself every day. Perhaps I will do it once a week. I hope you ladies are having a wonderful weekend and happy releases to you both!

Sorry I havent been blogging recently but I have been super busy with work and trying to have a social life... went on a horrible first date on Thursday, it didn't even look like he showered that day and didnt even bother to shave his face. Not a good first impression. Yuck. I have another date later on this afternoon to go bowling. Fingers crossed this one goes better!

R4 VLCD Day 13

Well, I went out to eat yesterday with my brother, his fiance, her parents and my mom. We went to Mackenzie river pizza company and needless to say I gained 1 lbs this morning. Then work wants us to try all these sugar free muffins and cookies and bars. So, I am going to stop taking HCG for awhile. I feel too guilty and it's too expensive to waste it when I am not eating on protcol. I will still be eating healthy and going to the gym 6 days a week. I am going to give myself a chance to try to lose weight on my own for awhile. I have been thinking about doing it after this round but with everything going on I just need a break and I don't want to feel guilty anymore!

Good news is that Sweetwater says they can do my 2nd externship so I think I will stick with them since they will pay me and my new place wasnt going to. I am having a heck of a time trying to find a part time job at night and never knowing my schedule puts a damper on finding a job at night. I have enough for another month's bills but that is it.

I'm sorry to be a quitter, but I am not quitting on losing weight I just need a break from the HCG. I wanna prove to myself that I can do this on my own and really teach myself to change my lifestyle eating habits. I am really enjoying working out so I know I will stick with that!

R4 VLCD Day 12

Gained another .4 this morning so that should be the last of my Panda Express outting. I don't have that long left so I have to be good from here on out! (Self pep talk)

Well, I have to go get ready to meet up with my brother and his fiance and her family. Of course they now want to meet at Olive Garden since my mom is sick and they no longer want to meet here. I love OG's. This is my willpower test! Grr. Oh well.

R4 VLCD Day 11

So, I was bad last night and had Panda Express with a guy. Gained .4 this morning. I hope that is all but tomorrow will tell. I will be going to the gym today and will work extra hard to make up for it.

School is getting itself worked out so I don't have to fret over that anymore. Thankfully. Now I just have to find another externship site for my 2nd term. Sweetwater doesn't want to do it since they are slow and cant for sure give me hours. It sucks but what I am going to do. I can't force them. My friend Andy owns Pastry and More so I will go there today and talk to him. Fingers crossed I find something soon!

R4 VLCD Day 9

So, I had to get up at 1am this morning for work. I debated whether or not to even weigh myself but I did. Only a .2 loss but that is alright. Hopefully tomorrow's will be bigger since I have to get up at the same time.

I am having such a hard time with school right now. I have been emailing in my journals and timesheets each week before the deadline and now the portal is saying that I am missing a week so I have an F for a midterm. I am devastated. I have sent my chef a few emails asking her to contact me and she doesn't do it. I am so pissed off and I have already bawled my eyes out. I sent a kind of mean email to her saying that I don't deserve zero's. It is in my "sent" file of my email but I don't know how I can show that to her to prove that I sent them. I dunno what to do. I am so frustrated and ready to give up.

R4 VLCD Day 8

Lost another 1 lbs this morning putting me at 187.4 which I believe is the lowest I got last round so tomorrow will be new territory! Woohoo! Worked out after work. I have to get up at 1am in the morning to be to work at 2:30am in the morning to I have to start trying to sleep in the next 30 minutes... wonderful. Like I am going to be able to get some rest. Ugh!

Hope you all had a wonderful day!

R4 VLCD Day 7

Lost 2.4 lbs this morning! Woo hoo! Gonna be late for work if I don't leave now! Have a good day!

R4 VLCD Day 6

So, I thought weighing in so early and my frosting attack the other day I would have gained but I lost .2. Not much but I'll take it. I have decided to do a 3 week round. That is what I have left in the bottle I am using so that way I don't have to spend anymore money. And I dunno if I have the willpower to do 6 week rounds anymore.

R4 VLCD Day 5

I lost 1.8 lbs this morning! But I know its a lie cuz I was making a birthday cake for my BFF's son yesterday (as it was his 10th birthday... they are going to celebrate once she gets back home but I still wanted to make his day special) and I made the frosting and before I knew it the spatula was in my mouth and frosting was sliding down my throat! NNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! Oh well. What's done is done. I didn't let myself eat dinner as punishment and then I worked out at the gym. Curse myself!

R4 VLCD day 4

So, I lost another 1 lbs. Hopefully this will continue to happen. I woke up sick again this morning. I have a horrible sore throat and swollen glands. Grr.

My federal refund got put into my account today! Yay. I have alittle breathing room again. I need to find a night time job so I can make some money! I am going to buy an Ipod nano so I have music to listen to at the gym and plus it doubles as a pedometer! I thought that was way cool. Well have a great day! I have to bake a cake for my nephews birthday tonight. : ) Boo that I don't get to have any!

R4 VLCD Day 3

Well, I lost weight this morning. But not much. 1.6 lbs. The only reason I can think of is that TOM is coming for a visit. I hope that is the reason and that I haven't finally reached a set point. I don't think I am as strong as Erica and go more than 2 weeks without losing weight!

Mom and I went to the gym and rode the bike last night. I think I will go again tonight and do the elliptical. That one kicks my butt! Well, I gotta get my butt in gear and finish getting ready for work so I can take the girls to school.

Have a good day!

R4 VLCD Day 2

So I didnt lose anything this morning! Waaahhhh! Hopefully I lose a ton of weight tomorrow.

R4 VLCD Day 1!!!

Ok, So my start weight is 195.4. I forgot to weigh myself when I started loading so I don't know how I did but I ate alot of crap so I am sure I did just fine. The last time I weighed I was 191 something but I dunno how long ago that was. Lol. Oh well. I am totally ready to start this round! Woohoo! I am ready to watch that scale go downward!!! No cheating! Gonna be real good this round! I am ready to be done with this diet already. I am ready to be trim again. : ) Mom and I are going to eat dinner together tonight so she sees how I eat... which isn't much so I dunno what good its going to do but I know if she sees me eating good it will inspire her to do the same and feel guilty if she doesn't. She would like to do HCG but she already takes artificial hormones due to getting her girly parts taken out so she doesn't want to screw that up.

Well ladies, have a wonderful day!

R4 Loading day 1

So, I totally forgot to weight myself this morning... opps. Oh well. I started loading today. Which is going alright.

The wedding was last night! Everything went really well! It was stressful cuz the groom was late! Eeek! Then when we started cleaning up I checked my phone and one of my best friends had text me and asked me to call her asap. I called and her mommy passed away : ( so sad! So, I am helping her husband take care of their 5 kids while she and her brother flew to Nevada this morning the make all the arrangements. I am exhausted! Worked all day and took care of the kids tonight so that Robert could do is finals for school. I dunno how you parents do it day after day! Craziness. I tell you what though, I had those kids scrubbing the toilet and cleaning their rooms and the entire apartment! I will start tackling laundry tomorrow after I get the 4 off to school!

I feel so bad for my Crystal and I know she will like coming home to a clean house when she gets back and will just be able to relax and not have to pick up stuff as soon as she gets home from a very sad trip.

Grrr.

I don't like my scale this morning. I gained 1 lbs. The only thing I ate was some regular bread since my mom took me to Carouso's Deli for lunch yesterday. I am mad but oh well. I tried on my dress and I can't get it zipped up all by myself but I can still get in it so I won't freak out too bad. I just need a second pair of hands to get the zipper over the seam.

It snowed enough were I have to shovel the driveway : ) Yay! My windshield wiper came undone when I was driving home from the gym last night so I have to try to fix it this morning. How frustrating! Then I have to bake a red velvet cake and make it into a haggis (eww!). I will include the picture I am going to duplicate. I wanted to make the lettuce outta gumpaste but I don't know where I can get some of the ingredients yet and I am outta time so I am just going to use real lettuce.

Well, have a great day!

R3 P3

Lost another .8 this morning putting me at 191.8 lbs. I need to lose 4 more pounds by saturday. Gonna head to the gym today so that should help and not going to eat any potatoes so that should help too. I have 5 days...

R3 P3

So, I lost .6 this morning. Was doing good on eating until my mom fixed dinner... potatoes... but I only had alittle. I love potatoes. It was pot roast, potatoes, carrots and I made a salad. I think all the good around it will outweigh the bad. Lol. I told my mom no more fixing me dinner until after the wedding. I can't wait to start R4 next week. I will be loading Sunday and Monday. Then a good 6 week round. I am ready to see the scale go down drastically! I'm tired of being fat! I am ready to finish losing all this weight and then it will be time to work on toning my body! Hopefully my mom feels up to going to the gym to get my membership all squared away tomorrow... I shared my cold with her... opps. Good night ladies! Hope you all have a great week!

Poopy!

Gained .4 this morning. I am going to have to do a steak day or 3 at this rate. Grr. I still have a week. I will be working out everyday.

Still sicky but feeling alittle better. I slept much better than I did the night before so that is always encouraging!

R3 P3

Lost .6 this morning. I thought I would gain since I felt so crappy after I work I just went home and didn't go to the gym. I have to go shoe shopping for the wedding today so hopefully I can drag myself to the gym today. I really need to get going on my weight loss!

I am happy to see that the snow stuck last night! I really enjoy seeing the winter wonderland for sure!

My first week of externship is done! Homework has been uploaded to the portal and now I need to get my butt in gear and get in the shower!

I hope you ladies are having a great day and have a wonderful weekend!

R3 P3

Lost .8 this morning. Yay! Feeling sicker and sicker unfortunately. Going shoe shopping in the morning for the wedding next weekend. Ekk. I have to make a groomsman cake for it too. Thankfully it will be pretty easy just time consuming.

R3 P3 Day 2

Stalled this morning which is fine. I exercised today. Walked a mile in 24 minutes on a 6 grade. Feels good to finally work out again. Now I just need to be taught which machines are going to help me achieve the nice toned body I want. : )

I am sick. Poopy. Not really feeling very good at all but I am sure it is due to the weather change. I work tomorrow then I don't work again until Sunday so I will have a couple days to feel better. : )

It's been a week since I have moved back. It went by super quick! The kitties are adjusting nicely I think. Kitty is the only one who really explores the house but when I am home and not in my room then the other cats will come out and find me. They just love their momma. : )

I am hopefully going to start my 2nd part time job next week. They are just waiting on the county to approve the zoning change or whatever. : ) Come on County, Bre needs a paycheck! My externship is going well. I am in "bageland" this week. Picking and packing bagel orders for delivery. It is really slow right now so they don't have alot of hours for me but as long as I get in my set amount of hours I need by the end of 6 weeks then school is happy.

R3 P3 Back on track Day 1

Lol! Hello Ladies! Sorry I went MIA for so long! I was traveling and doing wedding stuff with my brother and his fiance and I started my externship yesterday!

So, during my last week and a half off protocol I gained 6.4 lbs (about 2 lbs of that was from bunco last night, seriously!). I have 11 days to get it off. I can totally do this! After I finish getting ready I am going to get my gym membership and talk to the owner about the barista job. Well, I am off and running. AND IT'S SNOWING!!! Yes! I have been waiting for snow!

I hope you have all been well and doing good! I will catch up with your posts as soon as I am able. I have missed you guys!

R3 P3 Sunday.

Yep. Didn't weigh myself again this morning. Probably won't tomorrow either. My friends took me out to breakfast. My old manager wants to take me out to dinner on Monday night and another friend wants to go out to eat before I go to but I am running out of days. I can't wait to be back in Idaho and get back on protocol. I like eating healthier for sure and can't wait to have time to exercise. I can't wait to be done with my classes. Monday is the last day I have to go to school and after that I can just email my chefs for attendance! Im glad they are so cool about it. It is allowing us to get get to Idaho a day early and allowing us to start in the morning rather than waiting until I got out of class.

Went out drinkin' last night. Lol. It was so much fun though. I needed that. I definitely can't do nights like those very often. I'm getting too old! Lol.

R3 P3

So, I didn't weigh myself this morning because I didn't want to see what the scale said. I had my salad yesterday after my dress fitting and then I had 2 of these chocolate covered cake ball things called orgasms. OMG they are good. My friend made them for me and I have been keeping them in my truck to keep them away from myself until the move, at which time I will be totally off protocol. The same friend took me and her Grandma to Olive Garden today for a goodbye lunch, and we are going to go out tonight to a place called Westgate, it's a series of bars. So, needless to say I probably won't weigh myself again tomorrow. Lol. Wednesday and Thursday I will off protocol due to traveling although I will be bringing my salads so at least I wont be eating fast food. And then Valentine's Day I have Bunco, plus my first day of externship, so I will be off protocol that night too. But after that I have NO excuses and will have 11 days to be at 187.8 lbs for the wedding on Feb. 26th. Feb 27th I am starting my R4 loading days so April 1st I will start a 6 week round putting me on P3 on my birthday (May 14) and I will maintain until after my brother's wedding on May 29th and some time after that I will start hopefully my LAST round of HCG!!

R3 P3 Day whatever... Lol. I can't keep track anymore

I weighed in at 187.8 this morning! A 2.6 lb loss! Very proud of myself! I had jello, pudding, chicken and like 6 sugar free mint patties (my fav!). It's the cheese and dressing that is in my favorite salad that is making me gain weight. But, guess what. I am totally having that salad today at work. Lol. I can't help it. I probably won't be weighing myself after tomorrow until I get back to Idaho since I won't be eating very good, but at least I know I will go right back on my diet once I get there and hitting the gym every day. I gotta get my mom motivated. She wants to lose weight but is giving up after a week of eating good. I know once I am home and she sees me doing what I need to do then it will keep her motivated and we can walk the dog at night and all that good stuff!

Got contacts yesterday! I love them so much! Hopefully I can get them back in today! Lol. Have a good day all! It's my dress fitting today to make sure all the alterations are correct and my last night at work! Yay!

R3 P3 Day 11 (I think)

So, I did my steak day and had great success. I stepped on the scale and it said I was 189.4 which was right where I need to be (3.6 lbs loss) but I forgot to hold my foot on there long enough so it records my weight. So, I stepped on again and it said 190.4 lbs. So, I will keep it at a 2.6 lbs loss. I think I will buy chicken tonight and just eat lightly today to make sure everything goes well for tomorrow's fitting!

Hope everyone is doing alright!!

R3 P3 day 10

Up .6lbs from yesterday. Not really surprised though. I am up 2.6 from my LDW and 3.6 from the weight of my dress fitting. Doing a steak day today. Bought a fat juicy New York strip for tonight. Hoping I won't have to do it tomorrow but I totally will if that is what it takes!

Hope everyone is having a wonderful day!

Update: Just ate my steak and already my stomach isn't liking it! Sad. Hopefully I will lose a couple pounds in the morning. I will take another detox bath tonight and work out on the Wii Fit. I can't wait to move back home and go to a real gym!

R3 P3 Day 9

Lost another .2 this morning. Yay. Today was payday so I can get my steak tonight after work and do a steak day tomorrow. I am only 3 pounds away from what I weighed when they took my measurements for alterations so I should be able to hit that by friday no problem!

I now have almost $1200 saved for the move and my first months of bills when I get home. $240 for the Uhaul and probably $300+ in gas will go to the trip and the rest will be saved for bills and gas. I will have just about 40 hours on this week that ends today and 6 hours for next week (I only work Friday) so that will be a few hundred more that will come in once I move back. I needs to find a second job asap once I move back!

Next week... next week... yay! No more Arizona!

R3 P3 Day 8

Lost .2 this morning. I am going to do a steak day on Wednesday and Thursday if I have to... to make sure I am back down to the weight I was for my dress alteration. I have to try it on again to make sure the alterations they made are correct. Fingers crossed I don't have to kill myself doing 2 steak days in a row! Lol. I'm not stabilizing very well this round but after I get back home I am really going to kick it into high gear and hit the gym every day and eat right (not that I am eating the wrong stuff, just less cheese lol). My mom wants to lose weight and can't get herself going so I must lead by example and get her going before my brothers wedding on May 29th.

Happy releases everyone!

P.S. Erica... don't forget to weigh yourself! We are waiting!!! : )

R3 P3 Day 7

Gained some this morning (forget how much) but I think it's because I hadn't gone to the bathroom which I did twice today. I haven't eaten any meat since I started P3 so I think that may be a issue as well. Who knows. I ate some chicken on top of my southwest ceasar salad today. I get paid on Tuesday so I will do a steak day or two before Fridays dress fitting. Looks like I only work Monday, Tuesday and Friday and that is the end of my job. I told them I could work through Saturday though. I told my boss I wanted more hours and he said he thought he was doing me a favor so I could pack... I told him I packed 5 weeks ago. Lol. It will give me time to work on my projects for school and possible let me leave even a day earlier. My teachers this block are so flexible with me checking in via email to get me marked "here" for my attendance. It's really a pain to have to drive 45 minutes to attend a class when the class period it dedicated to doing research for a project when I can do the research from home and save the gas. Lol.

R3 P3 Day 6

Yay! The scale went down this morning. Only .2 but it's better than going up! I think I am 2 lbs over my LDW right now so I have a few pounds to lose again before I have to go back and try on my dress after the alterations on the 4th. No pressure. I almost ate a chipper last night (a bite sized cookie at work) but I told myself no! It's now been 4 days since my last cookie. Lol. I feel like Im in an AA meeting for cookie eaters. Anyways. Dropped my truck at the shop to get the once over to make sure she is good to go for the trip home. Kinda freaking out alittle... 11 days doesn't seem like very long and I have 2 big projects for my classes. Yikes! Hopefully I can get started on them this weekend!


Hope everyone is having a wonderful saturday! I am for the simple fact that I have the day off!

R3 P3 Day 5

So, I just quickly weighed myself and I am up again even more. I am going to weigh myself officially here in a few but I don't understand why I am still gaining! Well, maybe I do... I had 2 salads yesterday since I was so depressed at work and I just needed to eat something. Grr. Hopefully it will stop! I haven't been working out either. Maybe I should do that before I hop in the shower.

I hope you ladies have a great day and a wonderful weekend!

R3 P3 Day 4 I believe

So, I ate really bad the first 2 days of P3. I allowed myself to since I won't be here on my next loading days and I can't get what I ate in Idaho. Lol. I'm justifying but that is what I told myself. I ate really well yesterday so I know my gain this morning is just my body catching up. I will be super good from yesterday on. I am really enjoying eating cheese and have had my southwest ceasar twice now and am going to eat it again today since I forgot to bring bread to work yesterday (I make a sandwich there since I get 70% off its much cheaper than buying food at the store).

Have a wonderful days ladies!

R3 P3 Day 2

Gained .6 lbs this morning. But, I ate a cookie at work last night so I thought it would be worse! I ate cheese and my southwest ceasar yesterday... my body was VERY upset with me about it but I was full all the rest of the day. I made myself a sandwich last night at work to eat today on my ezekial bread. I am so happy for my break from the diet. Give my body a chance to catch up and rest. : )

Have a great day.

R3 P3 Day 1

I lost another 1 lbs this morning. I have my southwest ceasar in the fridge to eat today at school and I have CHEESE to eat when I finish getting ready! Yay for P3! I am ready for this break and I know in a week I will be itching to lose weight again. This time I really gotta maintain well as it cost me $160 to get my dress altered yesterday! OUCH! That was as much as the dress cost! Oh well, it's worth it. I feel like a million bucks in it. : ) I have to go back on the 4th of Feb and try it on again and if it doesn't need anymore altering then I can take it with me so that would save me an extra $15 on shipping. Alright I guess I should finish getting ready for school.

Have a wonderful day ladies!

R3 VLCD Day 21

Yay. I get to eat tomorrow! : ) I didn't lose any weight this morning so I have officially lost 71.4 lbs for a grand total and 16.6 lbs this round. I have my dress fitting today at 3pm so I will take pics of me in the dress and will hopefully have time to take some body shots tonight as I didn't have time last night due to not being able to find a strapless bra in my size very easily!

Have a great day ladies!

R3 vlcd day 20

Last dosage weight 189.4 lbs. I lost a pound this morning. No mor drops. Dress fitting tomorrow. Then I can finally eat! Im hungry!

R3 vlcd day 19

Pretty upset that I have to.do an applesauce day on the last day of taking drops. Gained.4 this morning. But had to weigh myself 3.5 hours earlier than normal. Makes me so mad. Im so glad im done with this diet for a month.

R3 VLCD Day 18

Lost .4 this morning. Tomorrow is my last day on the drops. I am so ready to be done. I want to eat cheese and salads! Its crazy that I no longer crave sweets. I love it. I know now that that is my main reason for getting so heavy. I would eat bags and bags if it.

R3 VLCD Day 17

Only lost .2 this morning. I haven't gone to the bathroom in a few days so I am hoping that is all it is. I stop taking the drops on Friday. I am excited to be able to eat again. Lol. Looking forward to cheese. : ) And my southwest ceasar salads from work. I am going to have to steal the recipe from work on how to make the dressing so I can make it while I am hope, otherwise its just pepperjack cheese and tortilla strips. That dressing is to die for. I am mentally ready for this round to be over. I think I am mentally ready to be done period. 50 lbs seems like so much more still, but its come off so quickly I can't complain. If I can be completely done by July its no big deal. 5 more months and I could be 140 lbs and I will be a happy camper. It's simply incredible really. And I have Erica and Mia to thank for introducing this amazing diet to me and Jessica for making me a bridesmaid and giving me the incentive and kick in the ass I needed to get started with losing all my fat! I am going to be a bridesmaid again on May 29th in my brothers wedding! I get to pick out my dress for this one so I can just buy it closer to the wedding and not have to get it altered. It just needs to be a darker gray dress about down to my knees. Anyways I need to start studying for my law test on Friday.

My dad didn't pay the internet bill and wants to disconnect it now so if I don't type much its because I am viewing and typing from my phone. I am going to start lugging my computer with me to work and school so hopefully I will have time to write more but just know I look at everyones blogs everyday and I am I so happy for everyone and keep up the good work!!! Woohoo. We are HCG rockstars!

R3 VLCD Day 16

Lost 1.8 lbs this morning. I have now lost 70.2 lbs since the beginning of september. I have 50 more lbs to lose. Seems like alot. Still losing alot of hair so I hope those pills start working soon!

R3 VLCD Day 15

Lost .6 this morning. My losses are starting to slow down now. It sucks but I at least wanna make it into the 180's before sunday. Then im on p3 til the end of february. Then I wanna lose alot of weight before my brothers wedding im in. will only be able to get in a 6 week round and will hopefully be able to lose 30 lbs the will only meet to lose 15 or so more lbs til im completely done. That is such a nice feeling. : )

Its been such a nice feeling everytime I get into the bathtub and it feels like the tub is getting bigger! Now while going to the movies is no longer uncomfortable cuz I fit in the seats. Flying home was great too! And not having the seatbelt streched all the way out. This diet is worth all the headaches and not eating what I want. I am grateful for sure. I never get a chance to really blog on here anymore but no work and no school today so I have time. 23 days until I move home!

R3 VLCD Day 14

Gained .4 this morning. I think its cuz I ate eggs yeaterday and didnt drink enough water. My step brother is leaving for an interview in cali today so I will finally have the house to myself and I can watch tv! Its going to be great!

Happy releases!

R3 VLCD Day 13

I'm down 1.8 lbs from yesterday! I think TOM's hold on my body is finally over. My ticker isn't working this morning but I am now 192.6 lbs.

R3 VLCD Day 12

Well, I gained .4 lbs this morning. I blame TOM and what time I am having to weigh in. Maybe I'll do another applesauce day today. We'll see.

Happy releases.

R3 VLCD Day 11

My apple(sauce) day was a success! I'm done 1.2 lbs. I cashed in all my change yesterday. $17 after the fee. And went straight to hi health to get MSM. The lady recommended Super Collagen + C over the MSM for hair loss and skin tightening so I got that (instead of buying things that I really needed like tampons and TP... sigh.) I am pretty dumb sometimes. Lol. I will just have to dig into my bill money.

Anyways, I hope everyone is having a wonderful day. : )

R3 VLCD Day 10

Gained .6 this morning. I don't really even care though. I am so frustrated with everything in my life right now. Guess I will do an apple(sauce... I have no money to buy real apples) day.

R3 VLCD Day 9

Lost another 1 lbs this morning. : ) Hopefully this continues! I only have another 12 days on this round. My hair is falling out really bad this round which makes me nervous. I have always had more loss than normal but this round is really bad! Yikes!

Hope you all are having a wonderful tuesday!

R3 VLCD Day 8

Lost 1 lb this morning. I went to the health food store across from my work yesterday and found some salad dressing... its' not Waldon Farms but it only have 1.5g fat and 70 calories and it actually tastes good so I thought I'd try it and see how my body reacts to it.

R3 VLCD Day 7

Stall day. Phooey. I can't wait until tomorrow when I get to sleep in and weigh in later. : ) Have a good day ladies!

R3 VLCD Day 6

Lost 1 lbs this morning! Yay. Only 15 more days until I have to stop which scares me! I would like to do a full round but I can next time. What is important is that the dress fit well! Do you ladies know any good brand of strapless bras do hold up someone well endowed up top!?? I am at 38 G right now. Strapless bras just don't do much to keep the girls where they should be! I don't really want to wear clear straps cuz you can still see them but I am wearing a shawl to cover my tattoos so that may be the route I have to take but would like to not have to!

Anyways, I was looking at myself in the mirror last night and now I think I am going to have to get surgery to remove access skin from arms and middle once this is done. Sigh. I look flappy and flabby. Erica, what is the stuff you take to tighten your skin? I would like to try that first and see if that does the trick for me! I would never be able to afford surgery more than likely!

Anyways, Have a wonderful weekend and happy releases!

R3 VLCD Day 5

Only lost .6 lbs this morning. I think it's because I am weighing myself alot earlier than I have been. 5:30 compared to 9:30. And tomorrow morning will be 3:30am... sigh. Or just those first few days were my best. Lol. We'll see.

Have a wonderful day ladies!

R3 VLCD Day 4

Im so amazed! I lost 3.2 lbs this morning!!! I am firmly in "one"derland! 198.2!

I also feel bad that others aren't doing so well. : (

Keep your chins up! Have a wonderful day... the weekend is almost here!

R3 VLCD Day 3

Lost 2 lbs this morning. 4.6 total now. I am .6 away from what I weighed before I left for Christmas. I will soon be in the "one"derlands!!! It feels really good! I hope I can lose 20 lbs on this round since I can only do a 3 week round then have a little over a month on P3 then back for hopefully my last round of HCG!!!

Woohoo. Gotta finish getting ready so I can go reserve my UHaul before class.

Have a good day!

R3 VLCD Day 2

Lost 2.6 lbs this morning. I got kinda hungry yesterday but not bad. Had a major headache though. I slept really good last night probably cuz I was so stinkin' tired. : ) Now it's time to study then get ready for class. I haven't done my Wii Fit in the last 3 nights so I am going to try to squeeze it in before I take a shower.

Have a wonderful day ladies!

R3 VLCD Day 1

Gained 1.4 this morning for a total of 4 lbs gained during loading but up 6.2 from my lowest weight I have weighed unofficially. Sometimes you gotta step back alittle to move forward. : )

Have a great day!

R3 Loading Day 2

Loading day 1 was a success... Gained 2.6 lbs this morning. I feel like a fat ass. I am now 1.8 over my LDW. Thankfully today is my last eating day. I wanted Port of Subs but now remember they are closed on Sundays. Boo. Oh well. My mom and I went to Caruso's in Post Falls the day I left to come back here and their subs are amazing!

Time to go to work. Definitely didn't want to get up for work. I can't wait until the drops start kicking in again and I sleep better!

Have a great Sunday!

R3 Loading day 1

So, today I start eating as much as possible. Lol. My friend and I are going to Olive Garden tonight. Yum. All I really want are McD's fries, Port of Subs and some ice cream.