R2 P3 Day before I start loading.

Still just eating what I want... I weighed myself this morning and I am in "one"derland! 199.8 lbs! Just barely but I am there. It will go away after tomorrow but I will be there again soon enough! Yay.

Happy New Year's Eve ladies!

R2 P3 I have no idea what day...

Well, I gave in and weighed myself... I am still 200.8 lbs! I haven't gained any weight!!! Yay! I can't believe it. That is really exciting to me that I can eat some sugar and bread in moderation and not gorge myself like I used to!

R2 P3 Christmas Day

So, I have not weighed myself since I got to Idaho. I haven't exactly been eating very good but I have been eating in moderation. My pants aren't feeling tight at all so I am not gaining too much. I went to the gym with my mom the other day and will go again on Monday. It will only be $18 a month for me to be added to my mom's plan. That will be good!

I got all the paperwork signed for my externship! I start at 8:30am on Valentine's Day. I am very happy and excited. The end is in sight!

I start loading again on Jan. 1st and will be very good on my diet. : ) I bought the homeopathic store out of HCG when I got here. I have 2 people wanting to start with me on the 1st. : ) Misery loves company so I thought it would be best for everyone to start at the same time. Especially first timers.

Merry Christmas my HCG family. I hope you have a wonderful day with family and friends.

R2 P3 Day 11

Well, I did it!!!! I lost 60 lbs by the day I leave for Idaho! I lost .2 this morning! I am at 200.8 lbs right now. I made my goal. From this point on it's all down hill from here! I am now 1/2 done with losing all the weight I want to. This is a good feeling. : )

Well, I gotta get finished getting ready and get completely packed so I can go home for a white Christmas!

R2 P3 Day 10

Lost 1.4 lbs this morning! Whoa! I think TOM is officially over now. Yay! I am now 201 lbs exactly! I am so close to "one"derland... it's killing me! I hope tomorrow I hit it! I leave tomorrow for IDAHO!!! I am so happy! I need to pack!

I wore one of my new outfits last night and I got so many compliments, it felt really good. It was the first time in about 7 years that I have worn anything kinda tight fitting. The jeans I got I think are those skinny jeans but they were the nicest ones they had at Ross when I was there. I usually like boot cut jeans cuz they don't hug your legs.

R2 P3 Day 9

Gained .2 this morning. I ate a little bit of potatoes (sweet and regular) and had a little piece of brownie this lady made that my dad said were almost as good as sex... but they didn't and he said they weren't as good as in the past. Plus I had some vodka shots. So, needless to say I didn't really work out last night so I will have to make up for it tonight!

Gonna be busy today for sure! I hope I can fit everything in!

Happy Sunday!

R2 P3 Day 8

Lost .4 this morning. Thought I would gain for sure as my Dad and I had Sonic for lunch. So that makes me happy. Lol. 3 days!

R2 P3 Day 7

Yay! Lost a whole pound this morning! I leave in 4 days and today is the last day of class. I got up early so I could go study for our final test. I have a majorly bad headache this morning too! Phooey! Took some pills so I hope it goes away! No work today either!! Got my new phone yesterday. It was more than I wanted to spend but its the type of phone I really wanted. And much harder to unlock the keys and pocket dial! Have a wonderful weekend!

R2 P3 Day 6

Stupid TOM. Gained .4 this morning. Didn't go to the bathroom this morning either. Maybe both of those reasons play a part in my gain. I definitely won't be making my goal by the time I fly home. That bums me out but I lost a ton of weight in a short amount of time so i can't really complain or be too disappointed.

Going to get a new phone today as I can no longer trust my phone. It randomly pocket dialed a number, they called back and we determined  we didn't know eachother. This was while I was at work... and then I called my mom after work and after that it pocket dialed that strange number again! They texted me and told me they were going to call the cops! I ALWAYS lock my phone too as I usually pocket dial my mom as she is pretty much the only person I talk to and is usually the last number dialed. My life is so difficult and I don't think I deserve everything life is throwing at me. I can't take much more hardship. : (

R2 P3 Day 5

Lost .6 today! TOM is here, but at least he will be over by the time I go home! I am so close to "one"derland I can almost taste it! I have been working out every night for about 20 minutes and I think that is doing me some good! 6 more days to vacation!! Have a great day!

R2 P3 Day 4

Down .4 this morning. I don't have much to report. Just chuggin' right along. TOM should be showing up today... great.

R2 P3 Day 3

Woke up to a .6 loss! Finally I am going in the right direction again! Lol. Worked out on my Wii again last night. I don't hurt as much as I have been the morning after so I think it is starting work and my body is adjusting to it. This is my last week in my baking class. I am ready for it to be over that is for sure! Our giant cake is due Thursday. I got all my gumpaste flowers taped and put together this weekend. We layered and crumb coated the 3 cakes on Friday so now we just have to fondant them and make our bows and decorate them!

R2 P3 Day 2

Gained 1.4 lbs this morning. I can't wait for my body to get used to eating again so I lose it! I ate several things yesterday and once the novelty of it wears off everything will settle itself back down I hope! Gotta go to work now... BLEH!!!

R2 P3 Day 1

Well, I gained .6 this morning. It is because I got a cortisone shot in my foot yesterday and last night my step mom took me and our friend Tommi out to Olive Garden for a drink and appetizers to celebrate her being done with her 3rd year residency for school. Plus it will one of the last times I get to spend some time with her as she is moving back to Washington state on the 27th (my dad's birthday : (   ) and I will still be in Idaho. I know I will be able to lose it once my body adjusts to eating food again! Ok, must go to work now. Bleh. Have a great weekend!

R2 VLCD Day 42

Last day of VLCD! Hooray! Just took my measurements... I have lost 50 inches since I started! Incredible! I lost .4 lbs this morning meaning I am only 2 pounds away from my first goal of 60 pounds lost! It's very exciting and I can't wait to go home and show off my transforming body! Thank you to Erica and Mia who turned me on to HCG!!!

Doctor visit today after school. It will be nice to be able to walk again!

Happy losses ladies!

R2 VLCD Day 41

My LDW is 203.2! I lost .8 this morning for a total loss of 27 lbs this round and a grand total of 57.6 lbs overall! Tomorrow is my last day on the low calorie and then I finally get to eat food!!!! I bought a block of cheese (I like to eat slices of cheese for breakfast) and some SF jello and SF pudding. I am going to buy ezekiel bread tonight after work so I can bring 2 slices to work with me on saturday and I have my entire meal planned out! Yummy!

The owner of the gym my mom goes to is giving me a week's pass to work out while I am in Idaho for free! I am super excited for that too! 12 days to freedom! It seems so far away but the days are going by super quickly!

Well, have a wonderful day ladies!

R2 VLCD Day 40

Last day of drops! Woohoo! I just can't get used to the taste of them... yuck! Lost 1.4 lbs this morning! I think the Wii Fit is really helping with that! I highly recommend doing a little work out! I need to lose this extra belly fat/skin!

13 days until my vacation to Idaho! I am very excited and it is badly needed.

R2 VLCD Day 39

Lost .6 this morning. I thought today was my last day of drops but tomorrow is. That stinks. But at least I have today and tomorrow to lose some more weight. I am getting antsy for a sandwich and salad and CHEESE!!! I am ready to be done until Jan 1!! Have a great day ladies!

R2 VLCD Day 38

Well, I lost 1.2 lbs this morning! Yay! I need to lose .4 more and then I'm back to where I was at my stall day. I only have today and tomorrow on the drops then off the drops for 2 days and then it's sandwich time! I am very glad for this round to be almost over. I didn't make it to my goal but I will be close. I set up my Wii Fit last night and did 21 minutes of exercises. I plan on doing it every night after work. It really hurts my heel spur but I go in on Friday and get another cortizone shot. I don't want to be in pain when I go home, and I am getting sick of limping halfway through my day! At least I'm not letting it get as bad as I did the last time!

15 days until I go home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

R2 VLCD Day 37

Well, my trip to Chipotle cost me 1.6 lbs. I promise to be good until the end now. I feel horrible. But before I would have cheated with sweets and candy and this was actual food so I am proud of myself for that at least. If one can be proud of cheating... anyways I promise to not cheat anymore these last few days! I am so close to my goal and to ruin it now is dumb. Sigh.

Have a good day!

R2 VLCD Day 36

Lost .2 this morning. I was kinda bad yesterday. I ate Chipotle Mexican Grill. I had the burrito salad but it still had naughty things on it... rice, pinto beans, alittle cheese and alittle sour cream. But it was so freaking good. I know I will pay for it tomorrow but I am going to buy detox bath stuff tonight and try to prevent as much gain as possible. I was really craving mexican food (taco bell) and at least Chipotle is all organic. I am over being on round 2 already! 4 more days on the drops and 2 off. It's driving me crazy!

I was just in the shower and when I got out the lights in the bathroom shut off... and none of them will turn back on but the night light is still working... super creepy! My step brother likes to watch those ghost hunter shows so I am alittle freaked out right now!

Well, have a good day and a wonderful weekend! 17 more days until I go home for Christmas!

R2 VLCD Day 35

My first stall day. Fooey. These last 5 lbs just don't want to come off. Le sigh. I have 5 more days in which to get them off.

I decided to start doing my Wii Fit once I start P3 so I can start toning my body. : )

R2 VLCD Day 34

Lost .4 again today. I'm still going downwards so I am not going to get frustrated. I only have 5 more days on the drops and then I'm on P3 until the 31st. My friend and I are going to start loading on the 1st of January together and maybe one of my guy friends from work too! I am now down 55 lbs and I just tried on one of my stepmom's old size 14 pants and I got them zipped up and everything! I would not be able to sit down or breath for very long but I am hoping by the time I fly home I could!! I am doing a mini shopping spree before I go home, just getting a few things since I won't be able to wear them for long, but I want clothes that will fit!

R2 VLCD Day 33

Lost .4 this morning. I hope it's only cuz I ate at like 10:30pm last night. Oh well, as long as the scale keeps going down at this point I don't really care. I am ready to eat different foods. I want salads again! Cheese! Sandwiches! I can't stand it anymore! : )

Off to school. Baby shower cake is due today. It took me 3 hours to glue my cradle together last night and now I have to get it to school without destroying it. Great, awesome, no pressure.

Have a wonderful day!

R2 VLCD Day 32

Lost another .6 this morning. I did the figures and if I can lose .6 every day for the rest of my round I can make my goal weight in 11 days (I have a total of 10 days left). I hope I can do it! Or I would basically be .6 away from my 1st goal so that will come off quickly enough! : ) Yay. I am getting excited to eat salads and cheese again... don't forget about the SANDWICHES!!! Yummy! And mayonnaise! Oh how I love mayonnaise! This next week is going to be torture as I think about all the food I get to have!

Well, I'm off to do my homework... gumpaste flowers and piping. Oh joy. I have a baby shower cake due tomorrow that I feel completely unprepared for... but today most of it will get put together. We are working with fondant for the first time today too. Should be fun.

R2 VLCD Day 31

Only 9 more days on the drops. I'm totally getting antsy! Lost .6 again this morning. Putting me back to where I was before I gained on Thanksgiving dinner. Tomorrow will be new losses! I am not going to make my goal by the time I'm done with my drops but I will eat really well to see if I can't lose it still before I go home. It should only  be a few pounds so it shouldn't be a big deal I hope!

I did what I had been fearing for 2 rounds now. I dropped the dropper at work yesterday and it broke part of the bottom off. And when I was reaching down for it I spilled some of my HCG! Now I have alittle less then 1/2 a bottle. I am sure it will make it till the end I hope! I could have kicked myself!

I get to sleep in my own bed tonight! I am so excited!

Have a good day! Erica I hope you are feeling better!

Update: Got back home and was putting things away. Very upset and hurt to see the pumpkin pie I made for Thanksgiving still sitting in the fridge, untouched. I stayed up until 2am making it and spend my hard earned money and now its just going to have to be thrown away. I will not be making any more desserts for this part of my family.

R2 VLCD Day 30

Lost .6 lbs today which puts me back to what I weighed before Thanksgiving dinner. Lol. 12 more days. I am ready to be able to eat again, and when I can eat whatever I want I want to be back on the VLCD. Lol... weird how my mind works! Have a wonderful Sunday ladies! I'm very jealous you guys get to play in the snow!

R2 VLCD Day 29

I knew it was too good to be true. I gained 1.2 lbs this morning. It's alright though. I'll just do a steak day today to get me back to where I was. At least I now know that it takes my body 2 days before what I ate "settles" in. Hope you all have a great weekend. I think I am getting sick which is going to really suck! Grr.

R2 VLCD Day 28

I can't believe it. I enjoyed Thanksgiving dinner... turkey, gravy, mashed potatoes, pastasio pudding, 1 roll with butter and cranberry sauce... and I lost .6 this morning! I just can't believe it! Wow. It's back to being a good girl today though. Gotta get ready for work now. Dun Dun Dun. Thankfully we are not in a shopping center that will see much traffic for Black Friday. Erica, I hope you had a wonderful loading day yesterday and stuffed your face with delicious food!!! : )

R2 VLCD Day 27

Lost .8 this morning. I did an applesauce day yesterday... no apples and no extra money to spend on them. I decided yesterday that I am going to enjoy some thanksgiving dinner in moderation (very moderate). I started freaking out about it yesterday and I don't think I should have to suffer at the dinner table and watch everyone else stuff their faces while I eat next to nothing. It's only one meal and I'll do a mini steak day tomorrow to drop me back down.

I was up til 2am! making a pumpkin pie and pumpkin chocolate chunk cookies last night! Stupid work is only giving me today off so I had to scramble to get it done. I will be so happy once I move back to Idaho and never have to go back there again! 24 days until I go home for Christmas!

R2 VLCD Day 26

Gained .4 this morning. Boo. I went to McD's and had a hamburger with no bun, ketchup or onions. Just extra pickles. I guess I won't do that again. This round is really starting to get to me. I have 16 more days. I hope I can last that long.

I slept like crap. The dog wanted in my room all night but my cats are in there so there is no way I will let him in. I am going to have to lock him in the kitchen all night too I guess. I didn't want to but I can't have him scratching the door and whining all night. I feel bad cuz I will be gone for 11 hours today and unless we get out early again like yesterday I won't be able to come here inbetween school and work. Plus I have to go to walmart and buy ingredients to start my baking frenzy tonight.

Well, have a wonderful day!

R2 VLCD Day 25

Lost .8 this morning. I'm now scrambling trying to get everything packed! It sure will be nice to be on my own again even if its only for a week!

Have a wonderful day ladies!

R2 VLCD Day 24

My scale is redeeming itself... alittle. Down .6 lbs this morning. I have 9 lbs to go and only 18 days in which to lose it. I hope I can make it! I am very excited that I am no longer considered obese by the BMI chart. I am under 35 BMI and started at 42 BMI. From 30 to 35 is considered overweight and 35 up is obese. You have to be over 40 BMI to get the gastrique bipass surgery. So that is exciting to me!

I am going to be staying at my old boss' apartment for the next week to take care of her dog. My kitties and I move in tomorrow morning. : ) It is closer to school and way close to work so it will save me gas money too and will be nice to be on my own for a week. And be able to watch tv when I want to!

Have a great monday everyone!

R2 VLCD Day 23

I don't love my scale this morning. Up .4 lbs. TOM isn't completely gone yet so hopefully that is all that is going on. Off to work now. Have a great day!

R2 VLCD Day 22

I could have done a happy dance this morning! I woke up to a 2 lb loss. TOM your hold over my body is going away! HA! I only have 9.2 lbs to my first goal and 20 days in which to reach it! I can totally do it!

Well, it's off to work I go. Have a wonderful weekend and happy releases!

R2 VLCD Day 21

Today is the half way point. It's all down hill from here. Looking forward to a sandwich again! Gained .6 today. : ( It's probably a combo of forgetting my food (so I didn't eat anything until after 9:30pm and TOM. Hopefully it will come off tomorrow and I can be back at 50 lbs lost. Well, Harry Potter was awesome, and now I have to go to class early to finish my children's themed birthday cake!

R2 VLCD Day 20

Lost .4 today. Stupid TOM. But I made it! 50.2 lbs! 10 more pounds to my first goal/half way goal. It is very encouraging to see that little ticker and the # of pounds to go getting smaller. Soon the # of lbs to go will be less than what I have lost and that is super exciting to me! I have 70 lbs to go now. I remember when it was in the 100's. I'm almost out of the 2- teens now! Now what am I going to call being in the 20-somethings.... huh, I will have to think about it!!

Have a great day ladies!

R2 VLCD Day 19

Damn you TOM! Lost .8 this morning. 49.8 lbs! 50 tomorrow then 10 more to lose in 3 weeks. I hope I can do it! I sure miss Erica and Mia blogging every day... ok, and everyone else too! Feelin' kinda lonely on here. Lol.

R2 VLCD Day 18

Lost another 1 lbs today. Nothing else really to report. Frustrated with school and working alot.

R2 VLCD Day 17

Getting close to the 1/2 way point. Thank goodness! I want to eat everything. I am getting sick of not getting to eat anything I want want. Lost another 1 lbs today. My scale is playing tricks on me. I got on my scale and it said I only lost .2 and then I got on again and it said I lost another .8. Grr. So I weighed myself again and that is what it stayed at (1 lb loss). I'm obsessed with the scale. I am enjoying it go down everyday and want it to continue doing so! Lol. Well, it's off to school I go. Hope you ladies had a great weekend!

37 days until I go home!

R2 VLCD Day 16

Yay! Lost 1 lbs. this morning! 3 more pounds til I hit 50! 13 lbs til I hit my first goal and 1/2 way point. TOM is going to be peeking his ugly head in my direction in the next couple of days. Not really looking forward to that at all. Well, Have a wonderful day ladies.

R2 VLCD Day 15

Well, I gained .4 today. Probably cuz I ate everything I was supposed to yesterday. Lol. This was around the time last round that I was gaining a pound here and a pound there so I am not too discouraged. Last night I was 1.2 lbs over what I weighed that morning so I am glad it wasn't that much!

Ok, well it's off to work I go...

R2 VLCD Day 14

Down 1.2 lbs today! WooHoo!! And going to the bathroom 2 mornings in a row!! It's sad that that is exciting to me now...   14.4 lbs to go til I hit my 1st goal!!! It's incredible! I can do this, I just gotta stay focused. No cheating!!! My next loading days I am totally having french fries. I didn't eat any on this last one and now I am obsessed!

We are doing a child's themed birthday cake and we have to mold characters out of modeling chocolate... I am going to do Rainbow Brite. I loved her as a kid!

Well, I hope everyone is having a lovely day!

R2 VLCD Day 13

Whew... Lost 1 lbs this morning! Was finally able to go to the bathroom right before. Yay! Down 14.6 lbs this round for a total of 45.2 lbs lost!

It is sooo cold here now! I had to break out my down comforter last night and everything! Brrr.

I have already begun to pack in my head for the move home.  I know I am going to save room in my U-Haul because I won't need to take home any of my clothes because none of them are going to fit. I bought myself a new bra last night (I have boobs again!) and a new pair of 10$ jean from Ross... I was a size 24 2 months ago... and these are size 18! and they are a little loose but I don't like tight fitting clothes so it works for me!

It's pretty exciting and I am ready to be done with school and Arizona... and being fat!

R2 VLCD Day 12

Well, gained .2 today. I am hoping its because I had some salad and chicken for lunch (I actually had time to eat yesterday!) and I haven't gone to the bathroom in 3 days now. Who knows. Im still doing good and on track for my goal so I won't panic unless I gain tomorrow too. Lol! Have a good day... Im off to buy a new car battery... hooray... not really I don't wanna spend the money but have no choice!

R2 VLCD Day 11

Lost 1.2 lbs today. Probably cuz I didn't have a chance to eat anything besides applesauce and my little fruit strips. I wanted to eat my steak when I got home but my dad was sleeping with the lights off in the room that is open to the kitchen so I let him sleep.

My dad and stepmom are yelling at eachother right now so I think I shall just do my homework at school and leave as soon as possible! I hate it here so much.

R2 VLCD Day 10

Down 1.8 lbs this morning. I am now securely into the 2- teens! 17 lbs to go to reach my Christmas goal and I have over a month in which to do it! I got this!

My new class starts today. I can get used to sleeping until 8am! It's nice!!

Have a wonderful Monday ladies!!

R2 VLCD Day 9

Well, I only lost .4 lbs today but I am happy with that cuz all I ate yesterday was caution meats... eggs and hamburger. I just wanted something different than steak. So now that that has been satisfied I can go back to eating steak again! : ) Yay!

Happy Sunday!

R2 VLCD Day 8

*Happy dance!* Im in the 2-teens! OMG!!! Just barely but I will take it! 219.8! 41 lbs gone forever! Gotta go to work now. Bleh!

Have a good weekend ladies!

R2 VLCD Day 7

YAY!!! Made it a week! Lost 1.2 lbs I think. I weighed myself and had only lost .4 then a few minutes later I had to go to the bathroom and then weighed myself again a couple times and that is what it said. I like 1.2 better than .4 so I am going to stick with that. Lol. It's my day off! Woohoo! Really slept til 8am this morning. Hoping to get a nap in sometime too. I went to Walmart and got a $5 movie... Million Dollar Baby... never seen it but it won tons of awards. I think I scored pretty good on that find! I completely look like a fool with my raccoon eyes! My face is SO red now! Oh well, hopefully it will calm down in a few days!

R2 VLCD Day 6

Lost 1.6 lbs this morning! I have now lost 39 lbs! I am so close to being out of the 220's now! I LOVE THIS DIET! I read that article in the CDA press and commented on it online. F the haters, we know what's up! Lol.

Sleeping in didn't happen but I tried. Woke up at 5:30am at my normal time (had to potty) and just tossed and turned and my black cat kept meowing at me because she was ready for some lovins. Got up at 8 though. Tomorrow I will probably sleep longer I hope. I am tired! Gonna get in the shower and take a weed wacker to my legs and lay in the sun. I gotta get rid of those bathing suit lines on my chest!

Have a wonderful day ladies!

R2 VLCD Day 5

Lost 2.2 lbs today! Woohoo. The first week is almost over!!! Definitely not has hard as the first round that's for sure!

Today is my finals so I got up early so I could go to school and re-read my chapters. I was just too tired to read my books and stay awake. I am so happy they are over. I get a sleep in day tomorrow and a full day off on Friday. I am quite excited for both!

Happy Wednesday everyone!!

R2 VLCD Day 4

Lost 1.8 lbs this morning bringing me down to the weight I was before I started loading! Yeah! I can't believe its already day 4. This round is going to be tougher cuz I really want to keep popping food into my mouth. Thank goodness my willpower is strong now. Im not hungry all the time as I was the first week of round 1 either which is good. Hopefully I can get more water into me today. I will be enjoying the cheaper food bill now. Lol. Well, have a good day ladies!

R2 VLCD Day 3

Lost .8 today. At least I can officially lose weight again. I am having a hard time drinking enough water. Working in the front 4 out of 6 days a week doesn't allow me to run to the back whenever I need a drink so it's kinda tough. Sigh. I am so sore and body weary. I haven't had a real full day off in 6 weeks but I get one on Friday and a sleep in day on Thursday. I am so excited and if I wasn't so sore and tired I would jump for joy. Well, good night my friends. Only 2 more days of class for this block. Yay.... except for my finals on Wednesday. Boo.

R2 VLCD Day 2

Well, I only lost 2 pounds this morning. Which is better than nothing but last time I lost 4.6 I think. Oh well. I won't let it get me down. I didn't drink much water yesterday so I think and hope that is why.

Happy Halloween Ladies!!

R2 VLCD Day 1

I feel disgusting. I gained another 2 lbs. But I am still .2 below my LDW from last round so I am not going to freak out too much. I hope I can lose all 4.6 lbs I gained in the last 2 days tomorrow morning. Lol. Taking the drops is still nasty tasting. I don't think I will ever get used to the taste. I have 30 more pounds to lose this round. I know Mia and Erica had a harder time losing weight than the first round which scares me to death!  

My dad got a new dog yesterday. His old dog passed away in June and ever since my stepmom said she wanted a divorce he has wanted a new dog. The dog is cute but that means that now my cats and I are prisoners in my room, again. I won't leave my cats up here by themselves all day. It's not fair to them. Sigh. At least its only for 3 more months until I move back home. It's just going to seem like a longer time now that I am stuck in my room again.

R2 Loading day 2

I gained 2.6 lbs! GROSS!!! I still have 2.2 lbs before I am at my LDW so as long as I don't go over that I won't freak out as bad. I felt disgusting all day yesterday. I had the WORST case of gas last night at work and even still this morning. I much prefer eating healthier over eating junk now. I can't wait to start my diet tomorrow. Not looking forward to starving the first week but hopefully loading well I won't be as bad off as I was the first round. But I know what to expect this time and will be prepared for it. I'm ready!

Have a good day!!

Update** Had a donut for breakfast. Not a maple bar but it had sprinkles which I loved... all I can feel is the nasty coating on the roof of my mouth... shortening. GROSS!

R2 Loading day 1

My official weight today is 225.6. I guess my body does not like jerky. Note to self for future! I am ready to eat! Woohoo!!! Have a great day ladies!!

P3 Day 21

So, TOMORROW IS MY FIRST LOADING DAY!!! I am so stinking excited! I bought some candies... I didn't find my pumpkin patch candies but Walmart has some Christmas candies already (?) and so I got some candy cane hershey kisses. That sounds good! Plus some Junior Mints, a Caramello, Hot tamales, and some carmel popcorn. Lol. I plan on stopping at McD's for breakfast on my way to class and hopefully having Chipotle for lunch (its a really good mexican kinda sit down fast foodie place). They have really good burritos and they only use organic stuff so it's healthier for me too! By that time I am sure I will feel disgusting but I want macaroni and cheese for dinner. Lol. I am not really looking forward to starting the drops again but I think I have a good schedule going and so I will take the drops as soon as I get up and then shower and that will put me over the 15 minute mark so I can have a drink once I get out the shower. I am excited to finally start losing weight again. I lost another 1.4 lbs this morning putting me at 225.2 and my goal is to be around 200 or less by the time I fly home so I think it's doable!!! Even if all I ever eat is cottage cheese and strawberries for lunch and steak and applesauce for dinner. It's been a magical combo for me and it fills me up and it's helping me lose weight! Woohoo!!! I'm ready! Bring on the VLCD!!!!

P3 Day 20

Today and tomorrow left. I am so happy! I can't wait to start losing weight again! I am ready for the weight to come off! I really wanna surprise my friends and family with how much I have lost!!Or I guess how I look with it off. Lol. I am going to have a Torrid shopping trip before I go so I have some cute clothes before I go that actually fit! Rack up some money on that card. Lol.

Gained another .2 lbs this morning probably cuz I wasn't hungry when they sent me on break yesterday (2 hours after I got there for a 9 hour shift...) so I never ate dinner cuz I was SO tired when I got home I went straight to bed. Its ok. I'm 3.8 lbs under my LDW still.

Ok, must finish getting ready for school. Have a great day ladies!

P3 Day 19

Went to the fair. Saw DMX. He is very sexy. Lol. Ate like 2 bites of a funnel cake and some chili cheese fries... gained .2 lbs only! The fries weren't even that good to me... which is really good. Fried foods are no longer appealing to me! Woo hoo! 2 more days until loading! Pizza here I come! The only candy I have been dreaming about is called Pumpkin Patch. They are these round disks with peanut butter on top and chocolate crispies on the bottom. They are halloween candy. : ) Gotta pick up some of those!

Have a great day!

P3 Day 18

Yesterday should have been day 17. Didn't have much of an appetite yesterday so I am down another pound. Hopefully things will start looking up now. I think my mom is over the saddest part. It is a different feeling when your parents come to you with their hurts as it has always been the other way around.

Think I may be going to the fair after work. We'll see. Have a good day!

P3 Day 16 I think

Oh man. My mom's constant companion (cat) Mikey died last night. He was fine when she left for work and when she got home he was foaming at the mouth and diarrhea and couldn't move. He had no white blood cells and when she left the vet for the night they called her 9 minutes later to say he passed. She was hysterical. He was a part of the family and he was only 7 years old. They are going to open up his tummy to see what happened as the blood tests and xrays didn't show anything that would cause his symptoms. My heart hurts all over again. First my dad and now my mom. I'm so stressed out and sad for them. I can't handle much more.

Needless to say I didn't eat last night so Im down 1 lb from yesterday.


Have a nice weekend ladies.

P3 Day 16

I think TOM is finally catching up to me... Up 1.6 lbs from yesterday. Still in the 220's though. I am really ready to start losing weight again!!! Oh well. Nothing else to report. Have a fabulous day ladies!

P3 Day 15

Lost another 1.2 pounds this morning. I don't know what I am doing wrong to keep losing weight. Maybe my body is just as ready as I am to lose more weight! TOM keeps messing with me and I don't like it! I feel really bloated and yet I keep losing alot of weight (for not being on the drops!) Any suggestions on what I should eat these last 6 days to keep me maintaining??

P3 Day 14

Damn you TOM!!! He started EARLY and is heavy. That is something new with the drops (and now off the drops). I have been like clockwork every month for YEARS until HCG came around. The benefits outweigh the disadvantages so I am still happy. Lol. I lost another 1.2 lbs this morning... I dunno what is going on. I went to In and Out with my dad yesterday and had my first fast food in 2 months! Had is protein style... wrapped in lettuce instead of a bun. Did ya'll know they had a secret menu?? Check out the website!! And then I had pudding and jello and a whole can of tuna with pickles and mayo. Lol. TOM will probably shoot me back up to my LDW tomorrow. Jerk.

Have a great day! I have another day off today!!! Woohoo!!! Then I work 6 days in a row. *Cry*

P3 Day 13

Only 8 more days on this phase! Woo hoo!! Lost another 1.4 lbs this morning meaning I am back in the 220's. Lol. I've lost 2.8 lbs in the last 2 days but I am hanging out around my LDW so hopefully that is ok.

I tried on my bridesmaid dress today. I was little loose in the 20 so I ordered it in the 18 and will just have them take it in before I move back to Idaho. They are discontinuing the dress so I had to order it now/soon before it was gone. Awesome news is the bride is going to pay me back for the dress! She said she didn't want us buying a dress we were only going to wear once, but I would definitely wear it for a fancy occasion! I totally felt like a princess... still a fat one but it's nice to know that I am no longer a size 24! Now I am going to have to find a REALLY good strapless bra to hold the girls up in that dress too!

Hope everyone is having a great day!

P3 Day 12

Steak really is my magic food. Had eggs with cheese, jello and applesauce for "breakfast" and steak and pudding for dinner and I lost 1.4 lbs which put me right back to my LDW! It's incredible. Well, it's Monday. Which means it's really my Friday... I have tuesday off for this week and wednesday off for next week... work schedule is wed thru tues. But I am still working 6 days and this next week I have 41.5 hours. At this rate I will have all my move home money saved and be able to afford to get my family some presents. : ) Hopefully! Well, It's time to get finished getting ready. Have a wonderful day everyone!

P3 Day 11

Thank god I only have 10 days left on this phase. I gained .6 this morning. It's probably cuz my step mom took me and her friend out to sonic. I had the hotdog with chili and cheese but no bun. I am not sure about the hotdog but the rest I can have. I am just gonna eat some steak for dinner and see if that drops me back down. I am so exhausted! Today is day 11 in a row of working. I have 1 more day after today. My step mom and I are going to see my nephew today too. I havent seen him in quite a while so I am excited.

Im not sleeping at night any more. I don't know why. Im just so tired a can hardly function any longer! Ugh! Gotta go to work now. Have a wonderful day ladies!

P3 Day 10

Whew... didn't lose or gain any weight today. Woohoo. I don't know what it is with me and steak but my body loves it for this diet. I will be excited when this phase is over and I start losing weight again!

P3 Day 9

Well, gained .8 back. I just gotta remember that I am under alot of stress right now and that TOM is coming. I am going to stop and buy more steak tonight for dinner but I am still going to eat my sandwich. Now that I am not working nights for the rest of the week I can actually cook some meat. Only 12 more days on P3 and then I finally get to load and get back to VLCD. I hope I have as much success as I did the first round. Have a great day all!

P3 Day 8

My steak day worked! I lost the 1.8 lbs and that put me right back at my LDW. It's weird that my body knows exactly where it should be now. Today is going to be a very long and hard day for me. I have to work another 11 to 9 shift today. I don't understand why they are trying to kill me. Oh well. I need the money to get the hell  outta here!

My dad is going to drive back with me to Idaho and he wants to do it in one straight shot. And he wants to leave as soon as I get out of school on Feb 10! I just hope my cats will be able to make it that long locked in crates. They wouldn't eat or use the litter box until we had stopped for the night when my mom and I drove down here. We shall see, I can't worry about that now but as you can see I already am!

Have a great day ladies!

P3 Day 6 and 7

Yesterday was day 6 and I gained .4 and today I woke up at gained 1.4! I HATE P3! I am going to do a steak day but I am going to have to eat my steak around 1:30pm since I have to work until 9pm and then go straight to bed. I thought my schedule would get better with my new availability but no, it still sucks. I really wish I was back on P2. This isn't worth the break. I like the structure of P2, I know exactly what I can eat and how much. Sigh oh well. It's only for 2 more weeks. I hope I can figure out the whole stabilizing thing soon.

P3 Day 5

Gained .4 again this morning. I really hate eating on P3! I had an apple and peanut butter for breakfast. Didn't get home from work til after 5pm so I ate some left over chili from yesterday and now Im stuffed. No desires for eating still. I am no good at this "eat to sustain your body" phase! My body likes 500 calories a day. Lol. I never have been a eat 3 times a day person so this is really hard for me. I want to reset my metabolism and I don't think I am doing a good job at it. But I am trying. Eating 2x's a day is better than I used to do. At least I haven't wanted to go crazy and eat everything I can find! I want chips pretty bad though. I keep looking at our BBQ chips at work and I can remember what they taste like and it makes my mouth water!

I think my dad might be doing better today. He wants to get a dog so that means my cats will have to be locked in my bedroom again when I am not home (which is pretty much all the time). Sigh. Oh well. If it makes him happier than I am all for it.

P3 Day 4

Well. No gain no loss this morning. Which is good but I only had 1 real meal yesterday. I had to force myself to eat some jello and cheese last night so I wouldnt be starving this morning. I have to say that I prefer the VLCD as weird as that sounds I like the few choices I am limited to and it is so much easier for me.

I used to eat my feelings (like you Tonnie : ) ) and I was happy last night when the thought of food disgusted me. Food is just becoming something I have to do and not something I want or enjoy anymore. Which is AWESOME! I really feel like this whole diet is working for me and giving me the confidence I need in order to stick with it and be really successful!

Eating on P3 is hard. I am still not hungry. I eat 1 sandwich and Im good for the rest of the day then make myself eat a snack or something because I know I should eat more. Maybe I will get more hungry as my stomach enlarges more?? Who knows. I think I will make myself eat some chili with cheese on top for dinner. I had my sandwich at 9:30am and its now almost 4pm and I am still full! I don't like stuffing myself!

Anyways. Thanks for all the support ladies! You are all so awesome to me!

Oh God. What just happened?

My stepmom just told my dad she wants a divorce. I am in a state of shock. I just need someone/somewhere to talk about it. My poor dad is heartbroken. I am scared he is going to pine away. I hope not. I am worried about him right now but I don't know what to say to him. Nothing is going to make it hurt less or feel better. I just don't know what to do for him.

P3 Day 3

Gained .4 back this morning. I ate my dinner and went straight to bed so that probably didn't help. But work didn't give me a break yesterday so I couldn't eat earlier. Which is what is going to happen again today and I was so looking forward to eggs with turkey and mozzarella cheese and a piece of bacon. I can always snag a piece of bacon on the fly. : ) I hope to get my weight stabilized here quickly so that I know what foods my body likes in order to not fluctuate. Well, have a good day everyone. I am off to the salt mine.

P3 Day 2

Gained .6 this morning. I had cheese, my sandwich <3, salad and jello. I am just not that hungry. I know that is under 1000 calories but I ate when I was hungry and didn't stuff myself... I wanted to after I had my sandwich, I knew I was full from the sandwich, but I really wanted that jello. I told myself no! those are old habits trying to come back... to just keep eating after I knew I was full! I was proud of myself. : )

Hope everyone has a good day!

A little pamper Bre time...

Got my hair cut. Just got some layers but I really like it! I was looking at myself in the mirror and got sad. Even with losing 30 lbs I am still a huge fat ass. I barely fit in the chair... which I would not have 6 weeks ago. I wish losing 30 lbs would have meant I wasnt so huge anymore but it doesnt. Kinda knocked me back into reality. Its no wonder I haven't had a boyfriend since highschool and no one wants to go on a 2nd date with me. I am scared I will be alone forever. I just want to have a family of my own. It seems less likely every year. It hurts my heart.

P3 Day 1

Man it feels good to say that! Lost another .4lbs this morning. I am sure I will gain it all back today. Lol. I made my tuna sandwich last night so it's ready for consumption today. : ) Have some cheddar cheese, jello, and applesauce in my lunchbox too. It feels so weird that I can eat again. I hope I am able to eat enough now! Gonna have a salad for dinner. Looking forward to that as well!

Have a great day everyone!

VLCD Day 38

Lost another .8lbs this morning. Which finally puts me in the 220's!!! Barely but I am there!!! YAY!!! This is my last VLCD day! I bought some sprouted whole grain yesterday so I can make my sandwich tonight for tomorrow! I am going to buy some of those pre packaged salads as well! And sugar free/fat free jello and pudding. Yum. I can have diet soda too. It always tasted so watered down to me in the past. I just wanna try it to see what it tastes like to me now. Lol. I am so excited for food. Question time for P3: Can I lose more than 2 lbs while on P3 or I don't want to go 2# under or 2# over. I think its 2# under or over, but I want to keep losing weight! Lol.

To celebrate I am getting my hair cut tomorrow by the fancy studio next to my work... they charge $55 for a haircut! But I get mine for $25!! Woohoo. I just need a trim and a style. I look like a bushman when it's down, or like a clown... it''s straight at the root and poofy at the bottom. It's time.



Anyways ladies. Happy releases today! I hope the scale is downward for you all! Especially Tonnie!!!

Update: Well, I went out with some of the ladies I used to work with... they all moved to other stores or jobs... I had a salad... it had gorgonzola cheese on it, I almost feel bad but I know tomorrow I can have cheese. It was so good though! It had pears and walnuts too. Yummy! And a walnut vingearette dressing so I don't feel too guilty.

I made my tuna sandwich for tomorrow. I also packed jello, applesauce and some cheddar cheese slices. I don't really know how to eat now. It is SO weird! I will have my salad when I get home from work. No breakfast... I just don't get up early enough. Lol.

VLCD Day 37- Last Dosage Weight!!!

I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I lost .8 lbs this morning for a total of 30.4 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now today and tomorrow of VLCD with no drops then onto Phase 3!!!!! I am so happy!!!!

Update: It is so nice being able to drink water whenever I want to and not have to wait 30 minutes with the drops! Bought some sprouted organic wheat bread at the health food store. I can't wait! I am going to have a tuna sandwich with mayo... yum! I have been so happy all day!

Ok, just took my measurements! 32.25 inches GONE!!! HOLY SH*T!!

VLCD Day 36

Alright, Im back on track! Lost 1.2 lbs today my total is now 29.6lbs lost. .4 more til 30lbs. I can just taste it! Worried though because I am out of cottage cheese and steak now and I agreed to work from 11am to 9pm today. Crap. Hopefully I will have enough time to stop at the store by school and pick up some cottage cheese! I can get chicken and lettuce at work for dinner I suppose. Lol. Oh well. I will find what I can. Well, have a good day everyone!

Update: Well, tonight will be my last drops and then my bottle is empty. It's only 2 days early so I don't feel bad. I just hope that I hit that 30lbs mark tomorrow. Im so damn close I can taste it! 2 days of VLCD with no drops then on to P3. I have never been so excited for a sandwich and a salad in my freakin' life!

Worked 10 hours day! My dogs are barkin'! Gonna work as much as I can so I can save as much as possible. I want to get contacts too... my glasses are rubbing the bridge of my nose raw, I seriously have a red rash or something across my nose now. Ugh! My life is never easy or simple, it's always hectic and unpredictable. Oh well.

 Good night ladies! I am sorry so many of you are frustrated. It makes me scared to do a round 2 p2!! But, we can do it!

VLCD Day 35

So, I gained .6 this morning. Grr. But at least I know what foods my body likes to lose it again tomorrow. Damnit! I am so close to being done and I just want a 30 lb loss. It's frustrating to say the least but I am doing  to finish it! Or at least until my drops run out... getting close! Ugh. Off to work now...

Update: My willpower is amazing. At my job we have 2 cookies that we switch out in the fall and summer. The ginger mollasses cookies are my FAVORITE!!! I had to make 4 trays of them before I left... we just got some in this afternoon. My manager and supervisor both ate one in front of me and started teasing me about how good they were... October 31st I can have one or five... I can wait. But I don't want to... lol. But I will!

I am almost out of drops but I have 4 days to go. My last day of drops is the 7th, and my last day of VLCD is the 9th. I start my maintance phase on Sunday... unless I run out of drops in which case I will start my 2 days of no drops on VLCD. I am ready for this to be over! The end is in sight and it's not coming soon enough!

VLCD Day 34

Feeling more encouraged this morning. Woke up to a 1.2 lb loss! That puts me at 29lbs lost total! I still have 5 days to go to lose another pound! Woohoo!!!!

VLCD Day 33

Only lost .2 this morning. Kinda a bummer. I am just really hoping I can make it to 30lbs this round. I only have a week left on the drops. Does that mean that I stop counting my weight loss on my last day of drops? Then I continue eating 500 calories for 3 days and then I head into Phase 3... correct?? I am getting very excited for a sandwich. It's all consuming right now. Well, I better finish getting ready for school. Hope everyone has big losses on the scale this morning!

New: It's so hard to keep going now that the end is in sight. It was much easier when the end was so far away. Now I am obsessed with being done and eating some different food! It's been a hard but satisfying journey.  But I am so ready for this to be OVER! It's hard watching everyone around me eating whatever they want. I wanna eat whatever I want again too... and I don't even want candy... which for me is WEIRD! I was a candy freak! I can't wait for my 3 weeks of getting to eat normally and learning to eat foods that are good for my body that will help me maintain a healthy weight for the rest of my life. Then, it will be back to 6 weeks of phase 2. I am learning good habits. I used to keep candy/chocolates in my nightstand and eat them as I read at night. Now the desire is not there, I go for my water bottle. : ) This really is a life changing thing. Thank you Erica and Mia for opening my eyes and showing me a way to be a better me. : ) And good luck and congrats to Cindy, Jackie, Jamie, Tonnie, Laura (classmate), and Natasha (classmate) for starting this and doing wonderfully!!!

VLCD Day 32

Woohoo. Ate food and lost weight this morning! .4lbs may not be much but its in the right direction which is all I care about at this point! 27.6lbs gone!

I worked last night as I said in yesterdays blog but I don't think I told you about my belt! I have a 2x belt that before I could only buckle on the last ring and it was tight... I wore it again yesterday for the first time since I started HCG and I can put it on the 3rd ring and have it be tight!! Woohoo. I wore it on the 2nd ring so it was comfortable but still! I always dreaded belts for the fact that they never fit and were uncomfortable. Now, that is starting to go away!

Well, today will be like yesterday.... School, come home and take a nap, then close at work. Tomorrow is my day off work so I will be doing laundry. My life is so exciting.

Have a wonderful day ladies and I hope you see big losses on the scale today!

New: Got the BESTEST news today! I thought I was done with my classes in April. Well, I went to the registrars office today because what they told me didn't make sense... They said I got done April 3rd but our spring break is from March 26 through April 3rd. She said i will be done with my classes on Feb 10!!! I will be moving back starting on the 11th so I'll be home evening of the 12th!!! WOOHOO!!! I am supposed to start my externship the next day after my classes get out but for those of us to move we have to have our actual start date on a signed contract with the company and school blah blah blah cuz I only have 6 weeks to complete all my extern requirements. I am so stinking excited! Ok, sorry had to share my news since my mom is still teaching school and can't talk to her until 3:30pm.

2nd New: I have to do this project in my nutrition class that I have to write down all my food for 3 days (way easy on this diet!) and have to imput it into mypyramid.gov for it to anyalze (however you spell it). Lol... I never eat my veggies. It doesn't like that. Lol. Makes me laugh at least my pysical activity level is good with just working and school.

VLCD Day 31

So, I had my apple day yesterday. Lost the .6 lbs that I had gained the previous 2 days before that. Beginning to wonder if my body only wants to lose the 27.2lbs that I have already lost. We'll see what the scale says tomorrow, I had cottage cheese and strawberries for lunch and just had some steak. Too bad its soo late, hopefully my body can digest it. Lol. Finally was able to go to the bathroom this morning too... it had been a few days. Lol.

Closed at my job today for the first time ever (I have worked there almost a year now). I took home so much crossiants, cookies and bagels. My fellow classmates and my stepmom's coworkers are going to love me tomorrow. The company we (work) donated all our left over stuff to when under so now we just throw everything away. I said NO WAY... my piggy classmates will love all this!

Thanks for all the encouraging words everyone! Just a few more days and I can finally eat like a "normal" person. Erica... would love the recipe for oopsie french toast!!! It made my mouth water when you described in on FB.

Love you all! Good night and yay for all the losses!!!

VLCD Day 879 Lol. It feels like that. I think its day 30.

Gained .4 lbs this morning so I am doing another apple day. I swear these last 12 days are going to be the death of me. Totally excited for phase 3. I can't wait until I don't have to take the drops anymore (9 days) and can eat like a normal healthy person. I can't wait to have brinner (breakfast for dinner). : ) Salads sound amazing right now and sandwiches... oh sandwiches... I could write a book about how back I want a sammy right now. : )

Had 2 more bloody noses today. A super bad one at work. It was horrid. Stained my work shirt, its in the washer now so hopefully it comes out. I really hope its the weather. I can get insurance going on the 1st of October so only a few more days and then if its still happening then I will go to the doctor. It can't be good for me... all the blood loss I mean.

Anywho... thanks everyone for reading my blogs and your words of encouragement. It really does lift my spirits up everyday. : ) Been feeling pretty discouraged with the gains lately. I am just hoping its from when I was sick and didn't eat anything for a couple days and I'm just having a hard to adjusting again. Lol.

You all are doing wonderfully!!!

VLCD Day 29

Gained .2 lbs this morning. I am really starting to wonder what is going on! I don't like having to have an apple day every couple days but it's only for less than 2 weeks. I am really starting to get excited. My last 500 calorie day is in 13 days that means I stop taking the drops in 10 days!

I have never been so excited to eat salads before. In the grocery store they have the individual salads with the amount of calories right on the label! I will stock up on those and eat them for lunch! I can't wait for salad dressing and meat that isn't chicken!

I have been getting a bloody nose for the past couple days. I just had one. It makes me nervous. I NEVER get bloody noses. Maybe its just from blowing my nose (but I have only blown it a few times today) but what if its from the HCG? I don't think it would have started this late (after 4 weeks) but it seems to happen not long after I take a dose. Who knows. My brother gets HORRIBLE bloody noses, he has to get his nostrils cautarized or however you spell it.

Well, I think I am going to do my homework and take a detox bath!!  : )

Update: Took my detox bath. When I get my own house I will have a spa tub so I can actually soak in the tub. I got the water level perfect except it was too high for the tub's liking and started to self drain. Grr. So, I ate eggs for lunch and my step brother started cooking hamburgers for dinner and I couldnt' resist the smell. So I had 2 caution foods today. Crap. I really hope I don't gain again. If I do then it will be another apple day tomorrow.  Had another bloody nose again at 5pm! This was a bad one too. I hope its just the weather change.

VLCD Day 28

I made it to 4 weeks! Holy cow! Did an apple day yesterday and woke up to a 2.4 lb weight loss. Brings me to 27.2 lb gone for good! TOM should be gone now so I hopefully the scale will continue its downward march!

So, I saw on Cindy's blog how to make a ticker (thank you Mia!), so I did... but now I am wondering how I update it everyday??

I am getting so excited. I was at work today and was noticing how loose my pants are getting. The crotch of my jeans SAGS down several inches now (YAY!) and there is bunching around the back side of my jeans too! I am excited to see the look on my mom's face when she picks me up from the airport in December. I know it will make her happy to see that I am finally starting to take care of myself.

Well, tomorrow starts my academic classes (yes, finally I don't have to smell chocolate and cake and yumminess everyday!) and my new schedule. Classes in the morning and work in the afternoon, but I have tomorrow off work so tuesday will start the new school/work schedule. Hopefully this will work out better for me to be able to study and get some decent sleep!

Good night ladies!

VLCD Day 27

Gained another .4 lbs this morning. Grr!! I am having another apple day today. Forgot to take my drops this morning, too. My day is NOT going well. I found some grissini breadsticks at Safeway so I ate one of those to see what they taste like. I like them. Hopefully it wont ruin my apple day. Keep forgetting to get baking soda for a detox bath. Maybe I'll just soak in epsom salts and see if that helps at all. I had better be back on track tomorrow or I am going to SCREAM!!!! Tomorrow is Day 28 and that means I only have 2 weeks left!!!! WOOHOO!!! Still don't know where to find Ezekiel bread... can anyone point me in the right direction?? I can't wait for a sandwich!!! Has anyone heard of vegainaise? It's like mayo but no eggs. My mom uses it since its 100 calories but the cool thing is because the oil is cold processed so she only has to count it as 10 calories (its the purple labeled one)(she does the Prism diet). Its in Fred Meyer in Cda, if you are in the produce area and look for the cold case with the healthy juices and such its on the top shelf. I was just wondering if we could count that as 10 calories as well?? I love mayo and would love it more if I coulduse it more often! Lol. Ok ya'll have a wonderful weekend!!

VLCD Day 26

So, I am back on solid food again. Gained .4 lbs but I suppose that is to be expected after being on a liquid/applesauce diet for a couple days. Still down 25.2 lbs which is awesome.

Made it though the entire day at work. Still feel like poo though. Came home took a nap, shampooed the carpet in my room, did laundry, mailed a package to my mom and did some grocery shopping. Not a bad days work. My sister is thinking about doing HCG and people are telling her that she will be weak from only eating 500 calories and she'll just be straving herself... well, look what accomplished today on less than 500 calories! Ha! Take that. Lol.

I have noticed that I no longer get out of breath walking up the stairs to my room anymore and my school uniforms are getting really big!!!, and my tight pj bottoms are no longer tight! Woohoo!

Well, I gotta get up earlier for work since we have mucho stupid catering tomorrow. At least I only have to bake on the weekends there anymore. I would love baking at work if I actually got to make and create things there. Everything comes pre-mixed (muffin mix, carrot cake mix, and the cookies are mixed and cut out into rounds already) so all I do is tray the things up and put them in the oven. BORING! I am really starting to hate it but it's not affecting my career choice cuz it's not real baking. I am just a cook basically. Ok, my little side rant is over. Lol.

Good night Ladies and great jobs on your weight losses!!!

VLCD Day 25

Lost 1.4 lbs this morning. I am feeling better today. No body aches, headache or sore throat... now I have a horrible phlemy cough and a stuffy nose.

At least I will be able to eat again!

VLCD Day 24

I am SO sick. Blah. I stalled for the last 2 days so I did an apple day yesterday and I woke up to a 2 lb loss. I think I may be doing that again today just because my throat hurts really bad and I have some SF applesauce that has nothing but apples, h2o and absorbic acid (vitamin c) and am able to get that to slide down my thoat without too much pain. Yesterday I did use real apples for my apple day. I just may be on a pureed diet for a few days. Lol. Sad.

Official weight as of this morning is 236.6 lbs.  Down 24.2 lbs. Have 2 weeks and 3 days to go then I can eat some real food. I am looking forward to chili and mayonaise (weird I know but I can do a roll up of turkey, cheese, mayo and mustard and pretend its a sandwich).

Not too much going on in my life. Came home from work this morning and if tomorrow wasn't the last day of my class and we're working on our last project that is due tomorrow worth a whole letter grade I would stay home from that too. But, I want to keep my A!

More: Barely made it through class. This is so horrible. I feel like I've been drug through the 9 hells backwards face down at least 20 times. At least no work tomorrow so I can rest until class. Bleh!

VLCD Day 22

Well, Today was another stall day. Still at 238.6 lbs. Boo! It's better than gaining though. That is my positive outlook on that.

My dad came home today for my stepmom's birthday. He works 4 hours away so stays in a camper while working. He said he can see the loss in my face. My school pants (the horrilbe black and white checked pants) are getting huge and my jeans slide off my ass when I bend over (thank goodness I have to wear a chef's coat at work!). I hate belts cuz they never fit so therefore are too tight but now maybe it will be better. My grandma bra is getting too big too. I am finally starting to see the changes and that makes me happy.

I had to sit there and watch my family eat t-bones (I had a 3.5 oz piece of tenderlion) and potatos and butter and sour cream. I just sat there and watched them and wished it was me but I just ate my meat. 2 weeks and 6 days until P3. I just don't want to get out of control while being able to eat so much more. I am scared and nervous about it. I know how I tend to be but I got a picture of the bridesmaid dress and it is stunning (I will attach a picture) and I am hoping to lose 100 lbs by the end of February so I look sexy in it!

 There is no way I would look good in that at this weight! I just want to feel pretty again.

VLCD Day 21 I'm half way done!

I am so excited to be halfway done with this round! It's all down hill from here. Lost .4 lbs this morning. 22.2 lbs for my total. 

Worked this morning then came home and took a nap so I haven't really eaten anything yet. But, I am hungry now that's for sure! Tomorrow is monday... don't think I am ready to start another week. I like days off. At least this is my last week of having to get up at 2:30am! No more baking during the week!! Yes. I think I shall see a much better change of my overall schedule. : )

Til tomorrow.

Good luck with day 1 Erica, Mia, and Tonnie. I am very glad we are all back on VLCD together.

VLCD day 20

Sorry about the depression blog. Sometimes I get so overwhelmed I just kinda explode and I don't have anyone to talk to about it but I needed to get my feelings out so I had finger vomit. Lol. But, I am feeling better today and I think sleeping helped alot. I just can't wait until all this school stuff is over and I can be back home.

I lost 1.8 lbs this morning. New total 21.8 lbs.

VLCD Day 19

Well, I did it. Lost exactly .8 lbs for a total of 20 lbs. I should be happy but I am pretty depressed. All I want to do it eat. I am sick of not being able to eat anything. I keep looking at the 1st 3 weeks section of the food list and seeing all the great things I can have but I have to wait. It's so frustrating. I am SO sick of water. I am becoming obsessed with the scale and eating less to make sure I continue to lose weight. I just wish I had someone to talk to about everything. I am feeling completely left out by my "family" down here and I just want to move back home. I am sick of being an outsider. I am sick of having no friends and being stuck at home. I am miserable. I just want to give up but I won't I've come too far to quit now.

VLCD day 18, I think. Lol.

Lost a whole 1.8 lbs this morning! 19.2 lbs gone forever! Ended up kinda doing a steak day yesterday cuz I was so busy! Only had a few bites of my chicken for lunch and had some steak and applesauce for dinner. I am hoping to see a 20 lbs loss tomorrow. Come on .8 lbs!

Chocolate work is finally done! We start on our sugar showpieces tomorrow... well, Chef is doing her demo starting tomorrow. This should be fun and I won't want to eat it which makes it all the better! My freezer does have quite a few candies in it for my next load days!

Sunday will be my half way done point. I can hardly wait. It's all down hill from there! It's been quite a "ride" so far. 2 gain days and 1 stall day. Hopefully soon I will be able to see my body shrinking. Lol. I've lost about 2 inches from everywhere but 4 from my waist.

VLCD day 17

Yesterday I had my first stall day. Which is much better than gaining!

Today I lost .6 lbs for a total of 17.4 lbs.

I am so mentally, physically and emotionally drained it's not funny anymore. I just thank God that I am having to switch to morning classes starting next block so that means no more baking during the week, but probably on the weekends, so no more waking up at 2:30am anymore!!! It's just becoming too long of a day for me. Tomorrow is the last day of the chocolate candies and I am so thankful. I am having the WORST cravings ever! But, I didn't cheat. I am bound and determined!

My step mom and step sister had a HUGE fight a month or so ago and she kicked my step sister out of the house. She is now back in the house for a week until her dad flies down here to get her and drive her to Washington to live. It's going to be a hell of a week. She is nothing but drama and the house has been so quiet and nice since she's been gone. But, it's only for a week. I will need happy thoughts and prayers sent my way all week! : )

Anyways, I am done "blabbing" now. I need to sleep, the screen is fuzzy cuz I can barely keep my eyeballs open any longer.

Good night and thanks for reading : )

VLCD Day 15

Lost another 1 lb this morning. Im now at 16.8 lbs loss. I weigh 244 lbs. Started at 260.8 lbs after my loading days. It feels good but I am not seeing a big change in my body or clothes. Kinda makes me feel sad. But I am sure it will come soon enough. I got SO hungry this morning at work I bought a side of eggs... 2 ounce ladle full of "scrambled" eggs. Couldn't even eat half of that before I was full! Hopefully it won't make me gain. I have gained 2 times already... 1 lb each time. But the next day or so I lose it and more. I am getting scared to eat now though sometimes. It's weird, like I am becoming obsessed. I've been trying to eat the food I have next to me for about an hour now. I have no appitiete but I know I will be starving in the morning if I don't eat it. I get paid tomorrow so I think I will buy some steak... haven't had that yet. : ) I love steak with A1, but I can't have A1. But I can pretend.

We are making truffles and molded chocolates in school right now. It's so hard not to eat them. I did take some of Chef's demo candies and I have them in the freezer until I can eat them. I am so proud of myself for not giving in even though everyone seems to egg me on to cheat.

I remember probably 2 years ago now when I was working at Shari's an older gentleman came up to me and told me if I would lose 50 lbs I could be Miss America. That has always stuck with me. Plus my mom telling me that the only way I will find a man is if I lose weight. Always used to make me really hurt. If he didn't love me at my "worst" why would I want him at my "best" ya know? But I can see that she is probably right. I don't want to be alone anymore. And I don't want to be fat anymore. I just want to be happy and have a family. Ugh.

VLCD Day 14.

I made it 2 weeks! Yay! Well, yesterday I gained 1 lbs again. Grr! But today I lost 1.6 lbs. I don't understand why I this is happening. But I am thinking it's cuz somedays I have to weigh at 3am and somedays 4am so my body hasn't finished working its magic. That is what I am choosing to believe unless someone has a different idea...

My official 2 week loss is 15.8 lbs which is very cool! I think I am still on track.

Only ate once yesterday. Not completely my fault. : ) We went to the ASU football game last night and I thought we were going to tailgate so I was going to bring my little packet of 3.5 oz of hamburger to eat. But that didnt' happen. So, I stopped by the store and got these little low calorie low fat pretzel crisp things so I wouldn't cheat too bad. They are good and Im glad I had them! Our seats where right behind the food venders and I smelling everything. I am going to have to put Philly Cheese Steak on my list of things I want to eat on my next load days. Lol. Yes, I made a list. I am going to load the right way this time! : )

VLCD Day 10 and 11

Day 10- only lost .2 lbs. I am noticing a difference in the times I weigh myself. When I work I weigh at like 3am so maybe that is something for me to keep in my head as well. I just gotta keep my head up and keep trudging along. I am still losing weight no matter what. I want to be sexy.

Day 11- I am still having a hard time going to the bathroom so I took another pill last night. I'm down 2.6 lbs today so hopefully that means my insides are cleansing themselves and I can get back on track and not have to take any more! Unpleasant for sure! Anyways, it's my day off so I weighted myself at like 8 something and I really think it makes a difference. I dunno. I am just gonna keep chuggin' along.

I am noticing it's becoming easier to not want "bad" food. I mean I want to eat it but my body and mind is saying that it's no big deal... which is awesome! I have never gone this long without eating sugar. I get golden delicious apples and they are so sweet to me and that is enough. It's absolutely crazy. School is tough but I am making myself eat my lunch right before I go so that way Im not hungry at all (not an easy thing when I get up at 230am and am hungry at 8 or 9 and school isnt until 230pm). I am trying to get myself into a pattern that I can live with and get myself through the day. It's working thanks to all the help from Erica and Mia. I couldn't do this without you ladies! You guys are my insperation!

VLCD Day 9

Well, I made it through my first week. Eating is getting easier... or lack there of. Lol. I was really upset this morning cuz I gained a whole pound! But I didn't go to the bathroom yesterday and I ate eggs. So, tonight I took a detox bath... just got out, now I am VERY relaxed, and today took a couple pills to help rooter my clogged pumbing. Lol, there just is no nice way to write about something like this! I weighted myself and I lost .6 of the original pound so I hope over night I will lose more. It's very defeating and it ruined my whole day and made work miserable. I really hope all this works. I can't take 2 days in a row of gaining! Ugh! Sigh. Good night my friends. Thank you for your words of encouragement today. I wish I could just wish away my weight. It would be lovely. Lol.

VLCD day 8

Lost another 2 lbs this morning!! Woohoo! Total is now 13.2 lbs.  Noticed it today cuz the bra I was wearing was too big around! So awesome, but now I need new bras which will have to wait until the end of the 6 weeks when I know what size Im gonna be for a while.

Tried eggs for dinner tonight. Mostly egg whites isn't as good but it tasted delicious anyways. Not thinkinig about food much anymore which is helping a ton.

It's Labor Day... already did my labor for the day... lol, work. It's hard having to get up at 2:30am cuz then I eat my "lunch" at around 9am so I ate my "dinner" at like 3:30. Ugh. But the silver lining is that my next block of classes (starting the 27th of this month) are all academic so I am starting earlier in the day so I can't bake anymore and will need to switch my schedule to 3 to 9pm which will be totally different but a good change for my eating habits (WAY less temptation!). I am PROUD to report that I have not "cheated" once... I love to eat the muffin edges (I have to square off the muffins before displaying them) and the broken cookies. The only thing I have eaten that isn't on the 500 cal diet is a pickle... which in the book it says to try substituting a pickle for cucumbers. I made sure to get pickles with no oil or sugar and they have 0 calories according to the label. I makes me feel like I am eating a real hamburger (hamburger patty, mustard, and a pickle on the side). Lol.

This truly is the longest I have ever been on a diet. I am glad it is working so well for me too. I keep thinking to myself what if I lose 40 lbs this round and only do the 3 week next round to lose 20 more so I can be into the 2nd 3 weeks of maintaince so I can eat some sugar over the holiday (Christmas). It is my little dream. Lol. It keeps popping up in my head. Either way I am just excited to be able to eat Christmas dinner with my family... even if I have to have a steak day the next day. : )

Alright, good bye for now my little blog family. Have a wonderful rest of you day!!

VLCD Day 6 and 7

Day 6 I lost .8 lbs for a total of 9.6 lbs. Tried cottage cheese for the first time and paired with strawberries it was really good! Getting super sick of chicken... Not much else to report just the same thing day after day.

Day 7 I lost 1.6 lbs! Total 11.2 lbs. Haven't eaten yet but I think I will go down and make myself something now. Gonna run to the store and get some eggs to try for dinner. Finding it easier and easier to go longer until my lunch meal. Not much hunger anymore. I am finding that it is hard for me to drink just plain water but I love making the lemonade! I can drink that all day!

VLCD Day 5

Nothing too exciting to report... only lost .4 lbs today. Hopefully tomorrow will be better... I didn't work yesterday and ate 2 apples... although I couldn't find in the book that you had to mix up fruit as well as meat. I did switch up my fruits today and got called in to work so fingers crossed I lose more tomorrow!

Getting called in I didn't get to eat my food til 2pm and I wasn't too hungry... still have no appittite until I am super hungry.

5 weeks and 2 days til Phase 3!

Did figure out that I will be on P3 when I go home for christmas so I can eat with my family. Hopefully that means I will reach my short term goal of losing 60 lbs before I go home! 51.2 lbs to go!

VLCD Day 4 September 2, 2010

Well, I lost 1.8 lbs yesterday and 2.0 lbs today! So far 8.4 lbs gone!! Woohoo. Read in the book I need to switch up my meats so I got some hamburger and ate that last night. I am looking forward to eating it again tonight! I made fresh lemonade too and it was awesome! Drinking as much water as I can handle. Lol. I even had tea yesterday, but I forgot my stevia (and my drops) so it was pretty gross. Over all I think I am doing well.

I sleep better at night (no waking up all the time) but I feel alot more tired by the end of my day. Don't have much of an appitite except when Im hungry but all I think about is food. Lol. This too shall pass! First week is the hardest and I am now 1/2 thru my first week. I have never stuck with a diet before. But I am bound and determined to do this! Once my body has detoxed I know it will be easier for me.

VLCD Day 2

Today was MUCH better than yesterday! Down 4.6 lbs as my first official weigh in!!!! I did learn that I was taking I WAY too much liquid. Got a new dropper so all it right with the world, except my bottle is almost 1/2 empty. : ( Good news is my mom sent 2 bottles so I can make it through this round no matter what. 1/2 mL is all you need 3 times a day! I am an idiot.

Anyways, was going through the food chart in the book (HCG weight loss cure guide by Linda Prinster) and it says I can have cottage cheese... what do I substitute that for?? Meat, veggie, fruit or melba toast?? Confused! Ugh. I don't understand I guess.

Hopefully I will lose a bunch more weight on the scale tomorrow.

It's so funny, all I can think about is food but yet Im really not that hungry. I have only eaten one of my meals and nibbled on my toast and a few bites of chicken which are my dinner meal. I don't really have an appetite until my body tells me I absouletely need food. Kinda a nice feeling but really hard cuz I always just snacked throughout the day.

Until tomorrow...

VLCD Day 1

This morning I felt good. Ate my food and headed to school. Started feeling sick towards the end of class and ran to the bathroom to throw up but no such luck. Took home an apple from school to eat on the ride home. Actually had to pull off the freeway to throw up while driving home. No bueno. Ate the rest of the apple after that. Trying to eat the chicken I had portioned out but my stomach feels really bad. This is going to be really tough. But Im going to do it. Damnit! I need to lose weight!!! So frustrating. Hoping tomorrow will be a better day.

Gained a total of .8 lbs on my loading days... that is not that good and maybe that is why I am having a hard time... who knows.

Sunday August 29th

So, I lost .4 lbs this morning... after all the stuff I ate. Geez! At least I know the drops are working cuz if I can eat all that crap and still lose weight I can only imagine how much I will lose while eating healthy stuff!

Started making my meals for the week. Gonna have to read the back of the book in the calorie counting section so I can learn all the different things I can eat and not just go off the recipes I found online. Make my own stuff up. : )

I am totally ready to start this tomorrow morning. I am ready to get my sexy back! Here goes nothin!

Saturday August 28, 2010

So, I started loading today. I have taken the drops twice so far today. They tingle/burn under my tongue until the 2 mintues are up and I swallow the liquid. My stomach definitely felt different (inside) than it has so I can tell the drops are going to work well for me! I bought food and baggies and brown paper bags so I can grab and go my food for the next week. It's all starting to become real now. I feel completely ready and it feels right, if that makes sense??

I dunno if I am loading right... I am just eating normal stuff but I did buy those Hostess cupcakes that I love. Tomorrow I would like to eat at the Olive Garden for my last ha-raw (spelling)... but feel uneasy about dining alone and I dunno if I can really afford it. My dad and I saw Avatar for the 3rd time tonight (way better with the extra footage... if that is even possible!) so I did have a little soda and some popcorn with a ton of butter. I keep thinking that I don't really need to load cuz I have more than enough fat stored in my body already! Lol!!

Cheers!

Friday, August 27, 2010

Ok, I have never written a blog before.

I am starting the HCG diet tomorrow. Or the "loading" days anyways. I know I will be good at those! I have my drops and I have my book. I am going to take my measurements tonight and my "before" pics since I have to work way early in the morning tomorrow. I am nervous and excited. I know as long as I can pre-make my meals for the week I will be able to stick with it and just grab-and-go my meals. My schedule is so hectic that making things on a daily basis is out of the question. I have about 3 months before Christmas and I want to lose as much weight as possible before I fly back home to Idaho for the holidays. I would love to lose 50-60 lbs by that time and 100 lbs by the end of February at which time I will be a bridesmaid in my friends wedding! Those would be my ultimate goals!

My dieting moto: I may want candy and sugar and burgers, but I want to be hot and sexy MORE!

Tomorrow starts day 1...